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Coming From the Heart: A Conversation With Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa & Anna Applegate~ Part Four11/13/2015 Anna Applegate: What role, if any, do you think Reconstructionist faiths should have in interfaith ambassadorship? Have you personally been involved in such initiatives?
Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: Personally, I feel that all faiths should take some kind of role in interfaith dialogues, whether that means taking part in a formal interfaith initiative, or simply engaging members of other faiths in discussions and activities from which mutual cooperation and understanding can grow. My experience is that when we invest our interests not only in personal interest, but in the interests of others in the wider spiritual community, we bolster our own personal experience of faith, and create a way for others to understand sacred experiences outside the scope of their own traditions. When we do this, it helps create awareness and tolerance, which can help to combat prejudice, discrimination, and violence between people of different faiths. Interfaith dialogues have enriched my own appreciation for the traditions I follow, but have also helped me to broaden my perspective, and avoid getting boxed in by closed-mindedness. Many years ago, when I first began my public spiritual mission, an important part of the work I was doing as a spiritual practitioner and priest was interfaith work, including initiatives for nonviolence and human rights. I had been greatly encouraged in my desire to engage in this kind of work by His Holiness the Dalai Lama, whose interfaith message and teachings on nonviolence have always had a profound influence on my own ethical perspective. I was invited in October of 1999 (and again in June of 2000) by the Office of His Holiness the Dalai Lama to take part in a series of teachings the Dalai Lama was giving, which I attended in the capacity of visiting clergy in the spirit of interfaith cooperation. The teachings and initiations I received from His Holiness were a significant part of the personal mission I felt was guiding my budding vision as a humanitarian practitioner. My vision was not only to call for a restoration of the ancient Egyptian spiritual traditions, but also, in a wider perspective, to call for a unity between the practice of religion and human rights ethics...that one could not be separate from the other. In my view, I saw this also as the practice of restoring Ma'at in our world, in cultivating a feeling of solidarity between people of differing views, which could only help in advancing the work of the Sacred Powers. These are all still goals I place at the center of my spiritual practice, which I always strive to include a broader view of the world in which I live and engage. What I'd really like to see happening is more interfaith dialogue between the various Reconstructionist faiths, and far more cooperation and support between different Kemetic communities. My experience in Kemeticism- both general and Reconstructionist- is that there tends to be a great deal of argument, banter, and disunity between various groups and temples. So much of the fuss seems to be centered around whose version of Kemeticism is the authentic one, or more authentic, or the real thing. Whose interpretation of source texts is correct? Who is using the “right” scholarship to reconstruct the traditions? Which groups have the “real thing”, and which groups don't? There is a lot of mud slinging, accusation, and argument taking place that has very little to do with devotion to the Netjeru and Ancestors, and mostly to do with the human ego. Far too much of an emphasis is being placed on source texts and belief, in my opinion, and not near enough emphasis on Sacred Work, cult, devotion, and engagement of the Sacred Powers. After a number of years of trying to connect with other Kemetic groups online, I eventually backed away from online communities entirely, and have concentrated all my effort on building an actual physical cultic house and practice...a hands-on approach, as opposed to a virtual one. Anna Applegate: Do you believe in evil? If so, how do you define it? How do you avert it? Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: I do believe in evil, yes, and I believe the existence of evil manifests itself in a number of ways. I'd like to begin with a Kemetic view of what evil is, because that's the spiritual framework I operate in. The Kemetic view of creation gives us two primary forces at play in creation, and these are Ma'at and asfet. Ma'at may be simply defined as “order” and asfet as “chaos”; however, these are very relative terms that need further elucidation. Ma'at is the continuity of the creative process as it was ordered by the Creator God at the beginning of creation, the Zep Tepy or “First Time”, “First Occasion”. So creation was began and regulated by the Netjer, and established according to a specific pattern of manifestation. The continued existence of all created things is wholly dependent on the maintenance of this pattern, and the tools for accomplishing this were believed in ancient times to have been handed down to the Egyptians for their use. These tools include the Daily Ritual, performed in every temple every day; the engagement of the Netjeru (Gods) through Sacred Works such as temple, votive offerings, and stelae; engagement of the Ancestors, the Blessed Dead; and specific rituals designed to identify and limit the activity of chaos or evil in the material world, which scholars term execration rites. Ma'at does not just mean “order”, “balance”, “truth” or “right” in the often relative way these terms can be used, but actually the “right way” through which the created world is maintained exactly as the Gods ordered it in Zep Tepy. Ma'at is literally the ongoing process of this divinely regulated creation, which, if deviated from, will result in the collapse of the created world. This collapse, its signs, symptoms and causes, are called asfet, which is anything that upsets the original order of the creative process. Asfet is not just “chaos” or “evil” in a human, social sense, but also self-destruction on the largest possible scale. The ancient Egyptians were, in a sense, apocalyptic people; they believed in the possibility of cosmic annihilation, which was for them a very real possibility at all times. How could this annihilation be avoided? How can the ongoing process of the divine creation continue? These were the questions that underpinned Egyptian culture and religion. It was through their divinely granted system of rites and rituals that the temples of Egypt engaged the Netjeru in order to keep the Sacred Powers active throughout the human world. These activities were the backbone for the maintenance of Ma'at in ancient Egypt, and without them, Ma'at cannot exist, nor can creation be expanded. The result is asfet, a dissolution of the divinely regulated process of creation. So how is asfet prevented from gaining a foothold in our world, and infringing on the cohesive force of Ma'at? That is why the Daily Ritual exists, the temple texts were compiled, the rites for engaging the Ancestors and Blessed Dead were established, and this complex framework for divine engagement was woven and remains active in the historical record. So often, modern spiritual celebrants look down on the ancient texts, prayers and rituals as being complicated or restrictive or dogmatic, and wish to move away from them because “these are different times”. They're not, actually. The same problems and trials, forms of injustice, and manifestations of chaos exist now that existed in ancient times. The only thing that has changed is our material technology. But the ancient Egyptians were given a tremendous spiritual technology for combating chaos and evil, and this technology is comprised of the liturgies, hymns, ritual gestures and ritual forms that were passed down virtually unchanged for thousands of years. These texts, like those of the Daily Ritual, existed as a direct response to asfet, so that the Netjeru could be directly engaged with humankind in the co-creative process of maintaining and protecting the created world. In these regards, how do I define evil? I define evil as any force whose aim is to separate myself and the human race from engaging our Sacred Powers and Ancestors in the divine work of Ma'at, which is the maintenance of creation itself. It is by way of our immediate, direct relationships with our Gods and Sacred Powers that this work of protecting creation can continue, and it is our inheritance and responsibility to behave interdependently with the Gods in the furtherance of Their creative work. That is what I recognize as Ma'at, the labor of maintaining the divine creation as it was ordered by the Gods; and evil is anything that rears itself against this sacred relationship, be it human, action, manifestation or entity. Secondly, I regard evil as that which attempts to strangle our individual mind and conscience from living in the way we know is right. Obviously, this is on a very subjective level, and is deeply personal, but I believe that evil operates in this way; in a way that strives to sever us from our personal knowledge of what is right and wrong, and that includes the operation of our freedom. Evil seeks to remove our freedom of choice, our freedom of individual conscience, our innate understanding of what is right or wrong for us. Evil strives to entice us into a box, a mode of thinking and living that disregards our conscience and our intellectual and spiritual freedom. Evil for me is any mindset that constricts our ability to reason or choose for ourselves, to operate according to our own free will. Evil is what we are engaging when we prevent others from exercising their free will, when we take away the right or ability of others to choose, think, or live according to their own volition. Kemetically speaking, but also speaking very much in a general Polytheistic sense, evil can be combated directly through the intimate engagement of our Gods and Sacred Powers. There are very specific rites, rituals, prayers and cult images created for the aversion of evil, and these exist in all Polytheistic traditions. In a Kemetic sense, we have the execration texts and practices, which are a collection of magical recitations and ritual actions designed to hand over the sources of evil and chaos into the hands of the Gods, thereby binding and preventing these sources from operating their influence. These are practices in which I have been trained as a vital part of my work as a priest, and it is certainly one of the basic understandings of what being a priest means. Being a hem-netjer, a “servant of netjer” or priest, means becoming the hands and feet of the Gods in Their sacred work of maintaining the cosmic order of Ma'at. This means that my primary goal is in the deflection of asfet from within the created world, and this means combating disorder and injustice in as many forms as it takes. How I go about doing this is by using the arsenal of spiritual technology handed down to me by my Ancestors in the historical record, but also by directly engaging the Netjeru and Ancestors throughout all my activities, making sure that I am operating according to Their plan for continuing the process of divine creation. In another sense, I avert evil by operating according to my conscience, and my conscience tells me that the use of free will, the use of my intelligence to choose for myself, is the strongest threat to evil I can muster. Evil fears free will and freedom itself, which compels the individual mind to think for and act for itself. Evil tells us there is only one way to think, believe, act, and live, and when we try to think outside the restrictive little box, evil closes in and attempts to remove our innate desire for personal freedom. So, what is a priest, a servant of the Gods to do? He fights evil by looking it directly in the face and declaring I am a free man, and I am going to think for myself! He uses his free will to make choices that do not violate the free will of others to choose, and he summons the Gods and Ancestors each and every day of his life to help him do it! That is how I avert evil! Anna Applegate: What advice do you give to spiritual seekers who say that they'd like to "work with" a given Deity, as opposed to cultivating a personal devotional relationship with that God or Goddess? Are there ever instances where having a "contractual" relationship with a Power is okay? If not, why not? Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: A Kemetic peer of mine recently directed my attention to the way she and others view the concept of “working with” deities. She pointed out to me that “working with” the Gods need not be seen in a negative light, if by “working with” we mean a spiritual partnership with the Gods, a mutually beneficial relationship that can be driven, in Alchemical terms, by the desire to accomplish the “Great Work”. So, in these terms, I'd have to agree with her, that one can “work with” the deities in a vital partnership for the accomplishment of the highest spiritual labors. We can view the Gods as actually being “hands-on” with us as we endeavor to fulfill our Sacred Work or spiritual aims. Why should we feel that we are alone in the mission of restoring Ma'at, say, to put it in a Kemetic context? The ancient Egyptians saw themselves as participating in the process of maintaining the cosmic order, which was an interdependent process between humankind and the Gods. On the one hand, you have asfet, chaos, the dissolution of the cosmic order of creation, and on the other you have Ma'at, the continuity of creation according to its original framework during Zep Tepy. Human beings are charged with the task of co-creating with the Gods, keeping the wheels of creation turning properly through maintenance like performing the Daily Ritual. The Daily Ritual is not just “worship” in the contemporary sense of the word, but is actually the vital process through which the cosmos is balanced and directed in a steady course. The ritual episodes of the Daily Ritual are the spiritual technology for engaging the Gods as co-creators with humankind. Each gesture, each set of prayers, each formula and offering is an integral part of the “work” human beings need to do in order to create harmony with the Gods, which ripples outward to effect the entire created world. So in these regards, “work” is a creative, co-creative process between humankind and the Gods. “Work” means Sacred Work, the labor of engaging the Gods and the Ancestors for the benefit of all created things. However, I know you're asking about “working with” the Gods in a way that reads as a strictly business-like, “contractual” relationship, that can sometimes mean the exclusion of a deeper devotional relationship. I'm not fond of “contractual” relationships with deities, and here's why. Let's think about our human relationships and how we define them. We have acquaintances, people we know in a casual manner, perhaps like, but don't necessarily include in our circle of friends...people we might depend on or enjoy spending quality time with. Then we have people we consider our friends, individuals we actually spend quality time with, share mutual interests with, and generally trust. And then there are those people we have as part of our inner circle of friends, people we might even call our “family”, though there are no blood ties between us. The definitions grow more and more intimate as we define our very best friends, lovers, spouses, and blood family. Think for a moment on how different each of these relationships are, and what each of them contributes to our overall life. Now let's apply this outlook to deities. Our relationships with our deities are a two-way street. We are hopefully asking Them to engage with us in a manner that meaningfully contributes to our experience of life, a manner that actually enriches our life and empowers us in every area. We have wants and needs and desires, and we're asking the Goddesses and Gods to fulfill these. We have “work” to do, and we're asking Them to help us do this “work”, and sometimes we're asking Them to do all the “work” for us. But do we ever stop to consider that the Gods we're invoking and asking for help are expecting us to meet Them half way? Do we ever anticipate that the level of effort or involvement we bring to the table is going to determine how much our Sacred Powers actually listen to and give us the help we need? Or are we just taking for granted that because the Gods are gods that they're going to snap to and give us everything we want, simply because They can? Well, my personal experience over the past 35 years tells me that the Gods are here to help us and to give us the things we want or need. Yes, They will give us what we ask for, and They have the power to do it. However, the Gods expect us to meet Them half way, at least, and They are going to respond in the same manner as we present ourselves to Them. People who use the Gods as some kind of cosmic vending machine are going to find out sooner or later that the Gods stop listening to them and engaging. If we are going to treat Them casually, then They are going to treat us casually. So, your casual acquaintances, the people you know but don't consider your closest friends; why don't you consider them as part of your inner circle, as part of your family...people you know you could depend on in a serious crisis? Probably because your relationship with them is merely polite, casual, friendly but not a truly deep friendship. Maybe you say hello once in a while, or ask them how their day is going. You might see them at work, and now and again exchange a few words. But who are you going to call when you need someone to really be there and pick up all the pieces for you? You're going to call the people in your life who have shown you by their effort and actions that they will be there for you and can be completely trusted. We don't like to think of deities as having these same kinds of discriminating faculties we recognize as being all too human, but They do, and They use them! If we want our deities to listen to us, be there for us, rescue us, and give us the things we ask for, then we have to be willing to step up to the plate and give Them our time, sincerity, offerings and respect. Without these things as a foundation, the Gods are going to treat us just as casually as we treat Them. If we merely acknowledge the existence of deities, then They are going to merely acknowledge us. They are going to return exactly what we're willing to give to Them. Our relationship with our Gods has to come from a genuine effort of cultivation, where we bring our true selves into the dynamic in order to establish a foundation of trust and love, a bond that manifests the blessings of a true and mutual exchange. The Ancients operated according to the premise of we give because You give, which defines an interdependent system of reciprocity. The Gods give human beings boons, and human beings offer those things back to the Gods. The Gods, then, respond in the selfsame manner, bringing human beings the essence of life, materially and spiritually. But it has to come from both sides. Both Gods and human beings have to meet one another in the middle, otherwise Sacred Work cannot be accomplished, and you will be left with a very one sided partnership. My experience with people who are “working with” the Gods has often left a bad taste in my mouth, because far too often I see people jumping from pantheon to pantheon every other week (I call them “dharma faeries”), “working with” the Gods in a very skin-deep or superficial manner. I often see these people treating the Gods like a cafeteria, grabbing all the bits and pieces they like, without paying for any of it. Oh, this week I'm “working with” Athena, and next week I'm “working with” Kali. It all get's very superficial, because instead of actually taking the time and pains to develop a solid relationship with the deities they're invoking, taking the pains to learn what the deities like to receive within their traditions, people are just snapping their fingers and making demands, then moving on to the next best thing. I think this kind of spiritual outlook is deeply disrespectful to the Gods, and potentially self-destructive to the people engaging in it. But then again, it all depends on how much you ultimately wish to receive in your interactions with your Gods. You're going to get no better than what you give, and if you want to grab and go, the Gods are going to grab and go, too. It works both ways, so people need to be conscious of this, that the Gods charge interest on the things we take from Them without bestowing anything in return. The Gods give with one hand, and take with the other. My honest advice is to check your motives and know your own intentions before approaching any deity...before choosing to “work with” a goddess or god. Be very careful how you ask for the things you want or need, and be prepared to meet the deity on their terms, which I think is very difficult for “dharma faeries” to do. What do I mean by meet the deity on their terms? Gods and Goddesses of all pantheons have a cultural and spiritual framework within which they are used to operating. This is another thing so many people seem to ignore or be unaware of. Each deity has demonstrated to its devotees throughout history the ways in which she or he likes to be engaged. Deities have favorite foods...oh yes they do! They have colors, textures, smells and sights that have been part of the celebration of their existence since the beginning of their structured worship. Hellenic deities have a very different flavor and set of expectations than Kemeties deities, or Norse, or Hindu. These are very ancient pantheons, whose desires have been made known and passed down from generation to generation. There's a reason why- when you examine the devotional track record of any given deity- devotees have brought the same type of offerings to the same deity over very long periods of time. These aren't accidents. These aren't human beings just projecting their own limited framework onto deities. These things become traditions, become part of a deity's cult, because the deity has indicated, through the bestowal of boons, that such and such an offering is pleasing to them. The same applies to cultic gestures, ritual music, cult images, temple sites, and so on and so forth. Cults are developed through an intimate exchange taking place between people and their gods, and these things shouldn't be so lightly swept aside if we wish to continue having meaningful relationships with these same deities today. So, I have to advise people to take some time to learn about the deities you are going to “work with”, if you're going to develop a “contractual” relationship with them. Demonstrate your respect to that deity or Power by doing your due diligence, as it were, within the tradition that deity has been operating in. Learn the offerings that have been part of that deity's cult, and have enough respect for these traditions to make a basic effort to include them in your “contract” with the deity. My own experience is that all deities appreciate even the smallest efforts we make to connect with them in a sincere manner. Starting off on the right foot means bringing your Powers the kinds of offerings they'd expect from those who ask favors of them. If you aren't willing to offer copious amounts of wine to Dionysus, I can promise you He isn't going to be interested in anything you have to say! I don't think this is rocket science I'm talking about. It's about basic respect for the Sacred Powers. How can someone demonstrate to you their sincerity to really be your friend? By learning your favorite foods, bringing you your favorite Godiva chocolate on your birthday, knowing your favorite movies, et cetera. The Gods are the very same way. If you want to get Their attention, bring Them the things They love, the things They've always wanted, especially if you're going to ask Them for something in return. People who “work” generally get paid for their labors, and those people wanting the Gods to “work with” them or for them have to be willing to pay for the things they're asking for. It all comes back to we give because You give. Anna Applegate: Tell me how Lady Olivia Robertson impacted your work/continues to inspire you. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: I think I was about ten-years-old when I started writing to Lady Olivia. Loreon Vigné (Lora at that time) had initiated me into the Isis Society For Inspirational Studies, and Paul Ramses was helping me to explore the doctrine of reincarnation and past lives, but they wanted me to connect in a much deeper way with the many aspects of the Goddess, the Sacred Feminine, so Lora suggested I introduce myself to Lady Olivia. You know, at that time I was going through a difficult time in my spiritual development, because my parents were very conservative evangelical Christians. They seemed not to have a problem with my enthusiastic correspondence and telephone conversations with Lora Vigné and Paul Ramses, because I think they considered them more or less as harmless New Age types who were helping me in my “Egyptology studies”. I think they went along with it because I never expressed to them the real nature of my involvement with Egyptian studies, or the kinds of things I was really absorbing from Lora and Paul. But I was lonely, confused, and determined to understand why I felt so strongly called by the Goddesses and Gods of Kemet. When I wrote to Lady Olivia, she was one of those rare friends who instantly showered me with genuine warmth and interest, who showed a depth of sincerity towards my relationship with the Gods. In one of her first letters to me, Lady Olivia explained how she had had her first physical encounter with the Goddess Isis...the great horned Isis...her first tremendous visitation. With that one letter, Olivia had changed the course of my life, because up until that point I had felt so utterly alone in the experiences I had been having with the very active, living Gods of Egypt. I sat in my bedroom alone for hours at a time, engaged in what I called my “quiet time”. These were my little meditations, where I calmed my body and mind, and invited the Netjeru to introduce Themselves to me. Slowly but surely the Gods initiated a sparkling relationship and dialogue with me, not as figments of my imagination or archetypes of my subconscious, but as living and breathing manifestations. It was Olivia with whom I could share these experiences, because she was having the same kind of experiences, and it was a great part of her work to help others cultivate their natural spiritual gifts, including awareness of the Gods and Sacred Powers. If there is one cherished gift Lady Olivia gave to me, it is the gift of remaining open...keeping every single channel I have open to Sacred experience...not closing off my mind to any avenue or form the Sacred might take in order to expand my awareness. So often we fall into that trap. We get caught up in spirituality or religion as an exercise of the intellect, and we lose contact, however temporary, with our intuition and heart. Lady Olivia always threw the doors of the intuitive heart wide open. She was never closed to any of the Goddesses, Gods, Spirits, Faeries, or Sacred Powers, and that is precisely why she was able to accomplish so much life-altering work everywhere she went, in everything she did. She didn't accept limitations to spiritual awareness, and her work always seemed to be growing, opening up further doors or channels for the Sacred Powers to reach us. She led such a spiritually vibrant life, so rich in the Gods, and that is her great legacy to all of us. I believe that Lady Olivia helped save me from my despair and feeling of confinement as a young man. It was such a constricting experience to be raised in the spirit-stifling atmosphere of evangelical Christianity. That kind of environment was a prison for my soul, when all I really wanted was to be with my Gods, to know Them and receive wisdom from Them. I wanted to reconnect with the Netjeru of Kemet, not as some body of mythological, intellectual figures, but as living gods who had the power to shape and transform my life for the better. Olivia gave that to me, that spark I needed to keep pressing forward in my Sacred Work, even though I felt confined or imprisoned by the faith of my parents. Olivia and Lawrence both had much to offer in regards to how one can live in the midst of close-mindedness, and it was because of their very generous guidance that I was able to maintain my courage to follow my Sacred path, despite the animosity I was eventually subjected to by my parents in their fundamentalist thinking. What Lady Olivia gave to me, what shaped my work in the past and continues to shape the work I am now engaged in, is this sparkling feeling of joy and devotion for the Gods and Sacred Powers, which really is the foundation of everything Olivia taught. She taught me never to lose my joy, my yearning for sharing with the Gods, my love for the Divine. When you are filled with love and joy, when you are immersed in devotion as an offering of your life and consciousness, then the pull of despair and darkness cannot touch you...it cannot pull you down or destroy you. When you come open-hearted and sincerely engaged to all of life's tasks, when you allow the Sacred to breathe through all the things you do, then your life cannot help but be anything other than good. And these are the things Lady Olivia taught me that have shaped my work, past and present. I don't think I could elaborate on that. Anna Applegate: You've recently launched a business called Icons of Kemet. What prompted you to launch it? What words of advice can you give to people who want to transition to spiritually based entrepreneurship? How has the interaction of business concerns and a spiritual ethos been playing itself out for you? Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: My journey with Icons of Kemet began a number of years ago. In 2009 I co-founded Temple of Ptah Nevada as a Kemetic Reconstructionist temple devoted to the restoration of authentic ancient Egyptian spirituality, and part of that work, quite naturally, is the revival of Kemetic iconography or cult images. As a priest of the God Ptah, I regard it as a vital component of my Sacred Work to revitalize the energetic link that has always existed between the Netjeru and Their historical iconography. Icons or cult images are much more than mere symbols or reminders of a deity's presence and powers; they are, in fact, physical and living embodiments of that presence and power, open channels through which the Netjer maintains Their activity within the domain of Sacred Space. Icons of Kemet is first and foremost a tradition and way of life, before it is a “business” in the outer world. What gives Icons of Kemet its legitimacy and mission is its direct link with the Netjeru as living Gods Who maintain contact with the physical world we inhabit. It is through the creation and activation of icons that a gateway remains open for the Netjeru to enter our world, and Icons of Kemet is operating as one of those gateways, perpetuating the physical manifestation of Netjer in our world. In a “business” sense, the creation of Icons of Kemet is the outcome of two key factors in the continuation of my Sacred Work. The first is the simple fact that devotees of the Netjeru need to have access to Sacred images for use in their worship. It is by way of such images that individuals and temple communities can know they are activating Sacred Spaces for their traditions, and are honoring the Netjeru by maintaining the images of the cult. So, in these regards I wanted to provide the highest quality images of the Netjeru that could continue to serve the Gods and Their devotees in the contemporary world. Secondly, I realized that the Gods had given me a valuable gift, not only as a means of celebrating Their cults, but also in eventually being able to financially support the temples my husband and I are on a mission to build. You know, DeTraci Regula, Arch Priestess of Temple of Isis California, said something during the 2014 Isis Symposium that has stuck with me every day since. DeTraci was giving a lecture about the continuation of the ancient temples today, and she said that each one of us- as priestesses and priests- came into this world with a unique gift that was ours alone, and that this gift was something that only we could do, and that if we didn't do it, it wouldn't get done. What we needed to do, she said, was find this gift, develop it, and let that be our path to service. Very wise words! I think I reached a point in my work a few years ago when it dawned on me that I was sitting on the means to cultivate financial prosperity for our temples, and that was my gift as an iconographer and painter. If I could eventually generate enough interest in my work, I could not only satisfy the needs of the Kemetic community to have special images of its Gods, but at the same time put those images to work in support of our temples. Sure, I could go out and try to find a “normal” day job and try to use that income to fund some of our temple's goals, or I could use the skills the Gods gave me to celebrate Them and sustain the revival of Their traditions. The fine art market has opportunities for unique work, and there are patrons out there who will pay huge sums of money for the kind of work I'm offering; and what better way could I find to bring in an income for our Sacred Work, than by using the very images of the Gods to help make Their modern temples a living reality? That is our ultimate goal, as far as a “business” focus is concerned. I think spiritually based entrepreneurship is a very noble pursuit, but it is also a tremendous risk, and a painfully difficult concept to make feasible in today's economic climate. The only reason I've been able to devote my working life to Icons of Kemet is because we have a full time income from my husband's career to support our life's needs; otherwise, there is no possible way I could be maintaining my current vocation. It's a very difficult trade off, because it means making sacrifices of things we really want in the short run, so that we can manifest the bigger picture. My advice to others is to first take a good hard look at your goals and priorities, and organize your business plan accordingly. I would also strongly suggest making sure you have some secondary form of income flowing regularly into your household...an income source you can wholly depend on. That way, should something go wrong, or the profitability of your business not manifest, your household will still be secure. Also, don't limit the possible financial success of your business by being closed-minded to generating the highest possible income from your endeavors. There seems to be this attitude in the spiritual community at large that making money is a negative activity, and that to be spiritually ethical one must somehow be impoverished, or hand out one's assets for next to nothing. I face this constantly in my work, where people somehow feel that because I'm an iconographer, and my work is “religious”, that it somehow has less value, and should be just handed out. People have this mindset that if it's spiritually sound, it should not be given a monetary value. I'm definitely not one of those people! My experience is that so many people in the Neopagan, spiritual community believe they have this innate right to everything spiritual, and that if someone is asking for financial compensation for their spiritual work, they are doing wrong. I think the moral wrong is actually in the reverse, to actually expect a person to deny their right to make a living and support their household just because their vocation or business has a spiritual focus, which you feel you have some right to. Everyone has a right to food, clothing, and shelter; to pay their rent or mortgage, support their family and obligations, and pursue their path to personal happiness. We live in a society that requires money for everything, and we can complain about that, throw a tantrum about it and fight it, or we can find ways to make that system work for us and our higher, spiritual goals. That is exactly what I'm doing, and I think it requires a thick skin, a strong vision, and enough personal strength to go against the grain, even of one's spiritual community. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa, Rev. Anna Applegate Coming From the Heart: A Conversation With Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa & Anna Applegate~ Part Three11/13/2015 Anna Applegate: The theme of this Autumn issue is "Dark Nights of the Soul." Would you be willing to share an anecdote of how the Neteru have helped you through personal challenges or episodes of despair? Are they currently helping you navigate the powerful currents of any life challenges?
Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: I could share so many “dark nights of the soul” with your readers, but I will share just one, which will be quite enough to express how my Netjeru have guided and saved me throughout my life. There is one thing I'd like to say about the Gods in general. I've encountered an attitude as I've worked with other Kemetics throughout the years that the Netjeru and human beings are something like cats and dogs...they just don't mix! There seems to be this undercurrent within a number of Kemetic communities I've encountered that seems to reinforce this view that we can worship the Gods, make offerings to Them, fear Them, but not have a close and personal relationship with Them. I have to say that this attitude is ridiculous, and is refuted entirely by the historical record. Museums around the world are filled with stelae, ex-votos, letters, inscriptions, and votive offerings deposited at both major and minor temple sites throughout Egypt, and these are objects that give testimony to people who have had their most fervent prayers answered by the Gods, and so have dedicated a monument or offering in order to pay thanksgiving to the Gods. Both women and men made petitions for fertility and conception through symbolic offerings at temples, and the textual record from devotional stelae and prayers is immense! The ancient Egyptians believed that their Netjeru could and did intervene on their behalf, bring healing and relief from suffering, grant requests for material or emotional needs, and deliver Their devotees from death. The massive quantity of devotional figures, amulets, and cult images recovered from town and village sites is proof enough that average Egyptians believed in the immediate presence and power of their Gods, and wanted their Gods close to them! Honestly, from a very human point of view, what good is a deity who is removed from our daily life and suffering? What need have we for gods that can't or won't hear our prayers...who demand worship but refuse to be engaged? What can any such deity or deities possibly offer us? And who would offer prayers or make offerings to such a deity? I'd say the answer is self-evident. Humankind has always responded to deities who are actually involved in human life, needs, sufferings and desires. Human beings establish ties and relationships with the Sacred Powers because they give us something we need for our physical and emotional survival. More than that, the Gods we worship or call upon actually answer us! We receive a response from Them that creates a bond, and a powerful sense that we are not walking alone. That is the reason religions have survived the test of time. Without a response from the Sacred, religion would cease to exist. My relationship with my Gods has always been immensely personal. I can't put my finger on an exact moment and say, oh, there it is, that's the moment that did it for me! I think I just have a naturally devotional nature, and that nature needs to give and receive love, to feel an intimate exchange between myself and the other. I have never been casual or superficial. If I am going to love, I do it fully and deeply, with abandon; otherwise, I'd rather not be bothered. This is how I love my Gods, and it has never occurred to me that such a relationship was anything other than natural. I was raised in a very strict, traditional Christian family...a church going family. My siblings and I were trained to memorize bible verses every single day, and attending church services twice a week was compulsory. But for me, there was an emptiness in Christianity, a void because the Christian god and his son were shown to me as aloof, judgmental, vengeful, and completely removed from human affairs. The Christian god I was raised with was an angry god who demanded at all times to be worshiped, but refused to show himself or engage actively with the lives of his followers. For me, this just never worked. If you want to be my god, if you want me to acknowledge your power and greatness and sacrifices, then you had better answer my prayers, manifest your intervention in my life, and speak to my heart directly. In a manner of speaking, you better bring it to the table, and be ready to throw down...you know what I'm saying?! I don't want to hear that it's all there in a book, because words are meaningless to me unless they're backed up by action. And I think that's always been the real difference between Pagans/ Polytheists and monotheists, ancient and contemporary. The Abrahamic religions, the religions of the book, have precisely that, a book. They have faith because they are told to, in books that are the law. Pagans and Polytheists have always asked for, and received, much more than the word from their Gods. Paganism and Polytheism have always been traditions of reciprocity and mutual exchange...I give because You give. The ancient Gods have always backed up Their end of the deal through direct intervention and demonstration of powers; what I'd call “miracles”. The Gods are anything but removed from the daily lives, cares, and needs of Their devotees. They answer prayers directly, and They show Their living presences throughout the natural, material world They created. They do not demand our worship simply because They're Gods, but through the immediate demonstration of Their powers, Their ability to govern life's forces and bend these to Their will. They speak to us directly, and They are willing to prove to us just who They are and how They shape our lives! My life has been shaped by my Gods, my Netjeru, Who have always answered my prayers directly, even when the answer had to be no, or you'll have to wait...or you need to rethink what you're asking for. I have never felt separated from the Netjeru, and no more so than during my “dark nights of the soul”. Lord Ptah is my namesake, that you know. I also serve Ptah as a hem-netjer or priest, and, as an iconographer or craftsman of cult images, I look to Ptah for His blessing and empowerment in my craft. I could cite all kinds of esoteric or mystical reasons why Ptah called to me, why I answered, and why I honor Him above other gods...above my own life; however, the simple truth is that He saved me. He took me by the hand, quite literally, and led me through a darkness that very nearly claimed my life. And that is His claim on me, this moment of crisis when I trusted in Him and gave my life over into His hands. It is the time that culminated in my life-altering decision to formally receive a Kemetic name from Ptah, but also to belong to Him as His son. 1997 was a turning point in my spiritual life. After years of cultivating a relationship with the Netjeru of Kemet, devoted study, and spiritual guidance from Gods and earthly teachers, I was prepared to take the next and most serious step towards formal ordination as a priest. This was to be a spiritual initiation and transformation, not a legal ordination within an established religious organization. That would come later, and as a formality only. For me, initiation and ordination are not experiences that can be conferred by others. We can go through a physical ceremony performed by others in the name of a religious body, and can receive a piece of legal paperwork that certifies our standing within a religious community, but these things alone do not confer the actual mystical empowerment of initiation or ordination. My initiation into the Priesthood of Ptah came by ordeal. When I say ordeal, I am talking about a deeply transformative personal experience that- by virtue of the level of emotional or physical pain involved- leads directly to an epiphany that results in one's spiritual awakening into the mystical knowledge of a deity's tradition or mythos. Each culture or tradition has its own expression of ordeal, which can take the form of rites of passage, during which those undergoing them are bestowed with a certain kind of knowledge or confirmation, an inner blessing or guidance for their life path. Many Mystery traditions and cults have this concept as the “dark night of the soul”, when one must undergo a painful self-examination, or a set of experiences whose outcome will determine whether or not an initiate is prepared to be inducted into the Sacred Mysteries proper. Such Mystery traditions or cults, like the Eleusinian and Dionysian Mysteries, use vivid experiences of ecstasy and terror to induce consciousness of the Sacred Powers directly within the minds and hearts of its celebrants. Joy and ecstasy can certainly be powerful tools for engaging the Gods and drawing forth empowerment from Their Mysteries, however, it is my experience that initiation often comes through ordeal, which can be the “dark night of the soul”. I had recently ended a long term relationship, which had slowly dissolved because of the religious differences between my partner and I. The more I had become immersed in my relationship with my Gods, the more he had felt excluded, threatened, and distanced from me. My partner had not found his own spiritual path, and due to traumatic experiences in his childhood, could not bring himself to accept anything resembling organized religion. What I was doing- being that it was so all-encompassing, so pervasive in my life- was ultimately too “religious” to be reconciled with his life path and direction, and we could no longer see eye to eye. It was the most devastating termination of a relationship I had had. But the situation as it played out have given me an ultimatum: it was follow my Gods, or stay with the man I loved. I chose my Gods. This was the beginning of my initiation, which I see as the process of me coming into awareness of what my spiritual path really was. It wasn't the Netjeru who made me choose between my faith or my man; that choice was solely mine, and I had free will to do as I pleased. I could have stayed in the relationship, and accepted that he and I would not harmonize in our spiritual beliefs. However, I wanted to devote each and every aspect of my life to service to my Gods, and that very much included any committed relationship I would invite into my life. If I had human love in my life, that love needed to embrace service to the Netjeru as its foundation; otherwise, there would be only a disharmony that would ultimately hold back the Sacred Work I felt compelled to do for the Netjeru. At that time I had no job and no savings, only a large line of credit, which I used to secure myself an apartment while I looked around the city for employment. It was then that I shaved my head for the very first time, and donned the white robes that for me signified taking on the Sacred Mantle of priesthood. Shaving my head was a revolutionary step for me, for I had always had a full head of lustrous dark hair, and had been raised with a certain sense of pride that it was the hair that made the man. But for me, the shedding of my hair was part of the sacrifice I was offering my Netjer, Who Himself was smooth of scalp, and Whose ancient priests had shaved their heads during their time of service. These are the little things we do for our Gods when we decide to make service to Them more important than the ephemeral things of this material world. We can give up our vanity, our sense of self-importance, our innate feeling that we indeed are the center of the universe. We learn through initiation that the Gods are great, that They are alive throughout Their creation, and that our life is the miracle of Their divine hands. We learn to see the bigger picture, that the Sacred Powers are far larger than us, and that we are engaged in an interdependent relationship with Them. When They give, we give...and when we give, They give. It is in our smallest gestures of love and devotion that are contained the seeds for a larger spiritual awakening, which are bestowed through the fruits of true service, which has nothing to do with the ego, and everything to do with love for its own sake. When one truly loves the Gods, one simply gives, out of instinct; but it is this very instinct, this altruistic instinct, that manifests the most profound rewards. This I have learned only too well. I seemed not to have found the job I was looking for, my credit ran out, and so did my ability to pay my rent. With the last sum of credit to my name I rented a small self-storage unit, put my shrines, my icons, my books, and my life into storage, and began a strange period of self-imposed homelessness. Most people in my situation would have been desperate at that point, and perhaps not a little spiritually desolate. But something kept me charged and invigorated from within, and perhaps strangely rebellious, too; refusing to acknowledge the seriousness of my situation, or see in it something self-destructive. Instead, I welcomed it, knowing that no matter how painful things became on a skin-deep level, that underneath it all would be the answer to my path in the Netjeru. I stayed with friends, and friends of friends, sleeping on a couch here or a floor there, scrounging coffee and food from friends at my favorite corner café; and all the while studying the Sacred Texts of the Pert-em-hru or Book of Coming Forth By Day. When a couch or a floor wasn't on offer for the night, I found relatively safe places to sleep outside, in apartment hallways or beneath shop awnings. I made friends with homeless men who had been forced into their lifestyle through desperate circumstances, and I never felt sorry for myself. I looked for the Gods in everything, continued to shave my head in the sink of a local park restroom, and did absolutely nothing to extricate myself from my ridiculous situation. One afternoon, I was sitting in my favorite coffee shop reading the Pert-em-hru when I was approached by a young man carrying a copy of the Corpus Hermeticum (or Hermetica). He was Indian, and I knew by his Dastar or turban that he was a Sikh. He told me that he had been watching me for a little while and felt that I might be the person he was looking for. Apparently it was his birthday, and he had given himself a vacation to San Diego as a birthday present. It was in a used bookstore down the street that he had discovered a copy of the Hermetica, which he believed was a much later manifestation of ideals that had been handed down by the temples of Pharaonic Egypt. It was a teacher of the ancient Egyptian religion he was looking for, and he told me he believed I was that teacher. I invited him to sit down with me, and for the next several hours we engaged in a very animated conversation concerning the Netjeru of Kemet, and the fundamental points of view that defined the religious traditions of ancient Egypt. Finally, the young man told me he was flying back home to Vancouver, British Columbia the following day, and asked me if I would go back with him in the role of his spiritual teacher. I look back on this event now and realize that it was one of those crossroads people reach that wind up changing the course of their lives. I did not see myself as a spiritual teacher at that time, but as a priest-initiate, traveling through my own personal demons and experiences in order to come into awareness of my ultimate spiritual path. It was not my devotion to my Gods that I was questioning, but my ability to guide and inspire others; for what right does a man in crisis have to advise others in how to pick up the pieces of their life and serve the Gods? That was how I felt then, but I realize now that I was in exactly the right place at the right time, having been guided by the hand of Ptah to the next stage of my initiation. I flew with Sukhi to Vancouver the next day, never stopping to ask myself how I would be able to fly back to America if things didn't work out. I had no money in my pocket, no resources of my own, and I was walking blindly into the unknown...into a country I had never visited, with a young man I hardly knew. What I did have was this certainty that I was being guided and taken care of, that Lord Ptah and my Netjeru were asking me to go on this pilgrimage of sorts, where I would have the opportunity to refine my understanding of the spiritual quest, and my own understanding of myself. Vancouver was a beautiful city, and Sukhi spent the first few days taking me to all the major landmarks, together with the places he loved. We visited the Sikh Gurdwara or mosque where he and his family attended sacred services, which inspired me greatly through the devotion that seemed to be the fabric of that faith. Throughout the evenings, and long into the nights, Sukhi and I debated religion, and I instructed Him in the myths and sacred texts of the Netjeru of Kemet. I shared with him my own devotional compositions, and chanted for him in the ancient Egyptian language. I had brought only one icon with me, and that was my first icon of Lord Ptah I had purchased as a birthday present for myself with money I received for my 14th birthday. Marble and gold with blue and black enamel, this Ptah was a reproduction of the famous cult statue of Ptah found by Howard Carter in the tomb of Tutankhamun. Every morning we lit a candle and incense in front of Ptah while I chanted the words from the Daily Ritual, and every night we veiled Ptah and “put Him to bed”. Sometimes we stayed up until the next morning, as Sukhi urged me to read the Pert-em-hru- the Book of Coming Forth By Day- to him out loud. Sukhi had a voracious appetite for spiritual learning, and my time with him in Vancouver felt like a teacher's boot-camp, where the Netjeru were refining my abilities to share the Sacred Traditions with others, and giving me the opportunity to expand my learning as I was teaching. It was also in Vancouver where I discovered an emotional and spiritual peace I had not known for quite some time; not since before the breakdown of my long term relationship. But it was not to last. In the middle of the night one night, Sukhi received a long-distance telephone call from a family member in India. His uncle was gravely ill, and his mother wanted him to come home so that he could be there in the event of death. His mother was purchasing airline tickets for Sukhi, and he would be flying out for India in a matter of days. I was stunned. Sukhi asked me what I was going to do, as I had no money or friends or connections in Vancouver, save him. That great sinking feeling overtook me the moment I realized the true test had come. My days of peace and devotion and philosophical introspection were coming to an end. I had avoided the inevitable for as long as I could, and it was time to pay the piper. How I would have loved to continue my days in the chilly air of a Vancouver Fall, strolling through parks with Sukhi as we debated the chapters of the Coming Forth By Day. How I longed to spend my evenings in devotion, chanting before my icon of Lord Ptah, sharing the incense and flame of candles with Sukhi as he grew deeper into the Mysteries of the Netjeru. What I knew I wanted from my life was a life of devotion, where I was free to serve the Gods through Their ancient rites, and to restore the traditions of the ancient sanctuaries as fully as possible. I wanted to teach, to learn, to be absorbed in the Netjeru; and the very last thing I wanted was the one thing I feared was going to happen, now that Sukhi would be leaving for India. This was the beginning of the darkest part of my dark night of the soul. Sukhi asked me about my family, if they could help me fly back to San Diego and get me back on my feet. This was the one thing I feared the most. I think I would have gladly cut one of my fingers off if I could have avoided asking anything, let alone this, from my family. Were there any other options? What did Lord Ptah want me to do? Would the Netjeru reveal any other choices or roads I could take to extricate myself peaceably from this situation? I performed a divination, which was inconclusive, made an offering to Ptah, and asked Him to give me a straight answer in a dream. Dreams have always been used by the Netjeru to communicate important information to Their devotees, and my relationship with Them was no exception. My experience has always been that the Netjeru will answer my questions through the signs and symbols of a dream experience. That night I left the candle in front of Ptah burning, and the Lord unveiled. We did not “put Him to bed” as we had on other nights, and the golden glow of His face was the last thing I saw before I drifted into an uneasy sleep, my heart aching with a feeling of premonition. In my dream the Lord Ptah appeared as He always had, but instead of giving me His usual blessing...pulling me into His body with His left hand, while stroking the back of my head with His right hand....He removed the white blessing shawl I often wore around my shoulders for the Daily Ritual, and tossed it into the air. The shawl flew through the air like a bird, gathering speed as it soared closer and closer to the ground. The ground took the shape of California, and my blessing shawl fluttered to the earth in the City of San Diego. Ptah pointed at me in a fierce gesture that seemed to strike me like a dart at the level of my heart, and then backed away. When I woke up with a start, my heart racing and the lump in my throat rising, I knew what I had to do. I was going home to San Diego, and I was going to have to swallow my pride, my pain, my fear, and the outward practice of my faith, and accept the help of my family. I tried one last time to negotiate with the Gods, bringing my tears and heartache before Ptah, begging Him to open up some other way for me. As soon as I began my prayers, I heard His voice in my heart saying “Swallow your tears, my son, and do what you have to do!” At this point I began to suffer excruciating dental pain from a couple of teeth I knew were probably abscessed, which made the physical, material aspects of my plight omnipresent. Since breaking up with my partner I had lived in a world of suspended responsibility, refusing to take the serious steps that were needed to make myself self-sufficient and productive in society. What I wanted was to be a spiritual recluse, to live as some kind of Kemetic hermit, considering nothing except for devotional service to my Gods. But was that really the way to serve the Netjeru, by retiring from my worldly responsibilities so I could chant and read the Pert-em-hru all day? Was refusing to take care of my material needs really the way to teach others how to engage the Gods and develop a personal relationship with Them? I don't think I wanted to hear the answers to those questions then. I resented time. I resented money and the material world. I resented any form of responsibility that would take me away from my daily devotions to the Netjeru; and now, the Netjeru were sending me back to San Diego to immerse myself in all the things that I had been running away from. In the end Sukhi wound up taking me to the airport and dropping me off unceremoniously in one of the massive and noisy lobbies. He said his goodbyes very sheepishly, ashamed, I think, of having brought me to Vancouver in the first place, and then leaving me stranded at the airport without food, money, or a sure flight back to San Diego. This left me to try my luck with friends, attempting to call everyone I knew before daring to call my mother's house and beg for her help. When that eventuality finally came, it was certainly the hardest phone call I have ever made in my life. My relationship with my mother was a strained one, and she was, as a strong evangelical Christian, anything but welcoming of my faith. She made it painfully clear to me how undesirable my presence in her house would be, and I waited a number of hours in that airport while my mother and stepfather debated and discussed whether or not they were going to help me come home. Home. That's a cozy way of putting my return to a place where I was unwelcome. I knew this was going to be difficult, painful, an emotional battle up hill, but I think I had underestimated just how much I was going to have to sacrifice to get myself back on my feet. There I was, standing in my mother's kitchen, a malnourished and shaven-headed waif, still wearing the white yoga pants and long-sleeve linen shirt I wore beneath my outer priest robe; looking for all the world like a Buddhist monk or a Hare Krishna, my lapis prayer beads with silver Ptah pendant hanging around my neck. It was then that my mother spilled her mind concerning my choice of religious vocation, the direction my personal life, and life in general, had gone, and the gross disappointment I had turned out to be. I listened to her lecture, as she verbally dismantled everything I believed in, sharing no sense of love or sorrow or sympathy with the recent dissolution of my long term relationship. What she could say about my religion, other than its non existence as a defunct pagan idolatry, was that I had not been raised to shave my head, wear a robe, and wander the streets of Hillcrest without a proper job. I had been raised to wear nice clothes, to drive a nice car, to have nice things and live in a nice house; and “nice” meant having a certain amount of money in the bank, living with a sense of pride in all my “nice” worldly things, and having a “nice” normal job that would eventually land me a six figure salary. What my mother regarded as a “successful” life was a life in which I amounted to something of financial and material value in the eyes of the world. What would make me a real man, a “successful” man, was working an average of 50 or 60 hours a week, so that I could have all those “nice” things in that “nice” house...that I could come home to after I got done with my 12 hour day at my “nice” and “successful” job. After my mother was finished with her tirade, I listened to more of the same from my stepfather. Needless to say, I was at that point thoroughly demoralized, and probably as emotionally devastated as I have ever been in my life. That night, I sat on my old futon in the guest bedroom of my parent's house, my overwhelming sense of desperation growing stronger by the hour. I had been told that the prayer beads would have to come off, the hair would have to grow back, and I would be expected to conform to my parent's standards of normality for the length of my stay in their house, which was still a subject of intense debate. I think I have rarely been in a place where I have felt such a profound lack of love or empathy, or even humanity, and have wished myself removed from the face of the earth. But there I sat, feeling all at once abandoned and wholly dejected, wondering how such a woman could have given me birth, and how I could have let myself come to this. On top of it all, my abscessed teeth had reached a point of crisis, and I was in nearly unbearable agony. What could I do but pray, begging Lord Ptah to bring me some kind of comfort, however small, and to send me a light from somewhere other than there! My mother came into the guest bedroom with one of her prescription bottles of Vicodin for my tooth pain, which was about as much as she did to bring me a touch of humane comfort in the midst of my struggles. I sat there staring at that bottle, wondering how many it would take to get rid of the pain. Yes, I said to myself, how many would it take? The thought of taking enough Vicodin to end my life seemed perfectly natural to me at that moment. I wasn't frightened at the prospect of suicide, only frightened by the thought of not taking enough, and enduring the consequences that could follow. I was perfectly calm as I read the label warning against accidental overdose, and made up my mind that I didn't want to be here anymore...in this world, in this place, in this “family”. As soon as I made that decision, I somehow felt better than I had in the past few days, and got up to go to the adjoining bathroom for a glass of water to take the Vicodin. I sat the bottle of pills on the edge of the bedside table, and felt a strange calm settle over my throbbing mouth. I still felt the surreal pain coursing through my jaw and throat, but suddenly felt that it was happening to someone else; like I was a visitor in someone else's body, without having to feel the effects of their pain for myself. When I came back into the bedroom, the bottle of Vicodin was nowhere to be seen, and I looked around the foot of the bedside table, figuring that the bottle had fallen off the table after I sat it down. It had. It was there just under the edge of the bed. I felt myself bend over to pick up the bottle, saw my hand reach out to touch it, but somehow I felt once again that these were the movements of someone else, and that I was just a visitor. And then I saw something that stopped me exactly where I was. I saw the feet and legs of Ptah standing in front of me. This was no delusion or hallucination, and, despite the excruciating amount of pain I was in, I was still in my right mind. I felt awake, lucid, though still as if I were a visitor in another man's body. I let go of the bottle, but refused to stand up straight. I have seen the feet of Ptah many times in my life, and for those of you who have, you know exactly what I'm talking about. His bandaged feet, swaddled in the purest white linen, were actually there in that room with me, and the air was suddenly heady with His sandalwood scent. This was no vision, but a physical reality that I still choose to believe was the living God Ptah. My heart beat fast in terror as the realization struck me that this was no projection of my subconscious mind during a state of meditation, but a solid manifestation of my Netjer standing before me. I did not see Him move, though I felt the palpable touch of His hands at the nape of my neck. At once, terror, at once disbelief; at once, the realization that I was back in my body, present and painfully aware of what my actions could result in. The throbbing in my mouth reminded me that this body was mine...or was it? Within the spiritual view of some members of the Heathen community, there is the concept of being “God-owned”, which means that a devotee, of their own free will, has offered up the entirety of their being into the hands of a specific deity. This is a complete relationship of service, devotion, and worship, where the devotee entrusts the fruits and direction of their human life to the care and use of the deity. This is the strongest possible bond that can exist between a deity and human being, and it is a consummate one, integrating everything in a devotee's life as part of the vehicle of service for the deity. This in no way means exclusion of other deities as part of a devotee's spiritual life; however, it does mean that this sacred relationship is the primary relationship in one's spiritual life, which spills over into every single facet of one's life to encompass even the tiniest aspect of our mortal life. I have never heard of the term “God-owned” being used within the Kemetic or Kemetic Reconstructionist communities, and I myself never consciously used it until only a few years ago; but now, looking back on this dark night of the soul, I realize that it was then and there, the very moment I had decided to take my own life, when I became Lord Ptah's own kin, His “God-owned”, to put it in the way of some of my Heathen peers. It was then and there that Lord Ptah claimed me, charged me with His sacred blessing, and made my flesh the container of His holy purpose. I was no longer the owner of my own skin, free to dispose of it in any way I saw fit, but was, as an instrument for His Sacred Work, a tool in His hands...clay in the hands of the Sculptor of Life. And I knew this then, with more certainty than I have ever known anything in my life. It was Lord Ptah Who cut through my self-pity and raging sorrow, allowing me to break free of my personal demons in order to come into the awareness of my spiritual gifts and purpose. I suddenly felt that my physical pain was inconsequential, temporary, and would ultimately fall away to leave a renewed man in its place. I understood, as I stood there at the feet of Lord Ptah, that it was through this purifying fire of Sekhmet, His consort, that I would be healed from my own ignorance and self doubt. These would be burned away, perhaps slowly at first, but would in time give rise to my full purpose as Ptah created it. I had heard my Kemetic name before, in the back of my mind during meditations, and I had begun to use it in my Kemetic work with peers and colleagues, but I had not formally accepted it from Ptah, nor made the final decision to take it as my legal name until that night. It was there in the presence of Ptah that I took my personal vows as His priest, and the nectar of this experience I recorded in a prayer which I call my “heart prayer” of Ptah. For me, this prayer sums up the innermost nature of being “God-owned” or fully consecrated to a deity. It also speaks to its reader of the living nature of the living God Ptah, Who is the Creator of the Gods, and the Father-Mother of all living things: Homage to You, Ptah, And hail to the Gods Who came forth from Your members! O Ptah of life, O Ptah of light, O Ptah of mercy, Hear my prayer. O Ear that hears, O Eyes that see, O Hands that bless, Receive my offering. O Father Ptah, I give You my heart. O Father Ptah, I give You my hands. O Father Ptah, I give You my breath, O Father Ptah, I give You my ka. O Father Ptah, I give You my name. O Father Ptah, I receive Yours in return. O Father Ptah, I give You my sorrow. O Father Ptah, I receive Your power in return. O Father Ptah, I become Your own flesh. O Father Ptah, You become the Lord of my life. O Ptah of life, May Your life be my life. O Ptah of light, May Your light be my light. O Ptah of mercy, May Your compassion Liberate me; I who came forth From Your body! I am also a priest of the Great Goddess Auset, Who has been with me from the time I was a child. There are a number of “dark nights of the soul” stories I could recount from my many years of walking with the Goddess, but because time is short and space is limited here, I have chosen to tell a story of my darkest night of the soul that I have never written down before, and have told only one person, my husband. However, I wanted to end this segment of the interview with a recitation of two very dear prayers I wrote in response to Auset having rescued me during my dark nights of the soul. These are prayers I have continued to use whenever I feel the pull of darkness in my life, whenever I need to bring forth the Light. May they touch all with the same Sacred illumination. Great Goddess Isis, I have heard Your call in my heart, and I vow to love and serve You until I take my final breath. O Isis, I take up the knot of the sacred red thread, and I tie this knot around my heart. My vow to serve You is a vow to serve all living things in creation. My vow to You is to love all beings, to heal all the afflicted, to save all those in peril, to take the hands of those without a friend. May my life be the vessel of Your kindness, generosity and abundant love. I reject none, and take unto myself the needs of all creatures in the world. Receive my vow, O Isis, and may Your great work flourish in my heart for millions upon millions of years! O Isis Myrionymous, the Many-Named, Mother of the World, the Great Enchantress, Whose nightly footsteps spin the sea Of stars in the celestial vault! O Bride, veiled, O Mysterious One, The throne of the Mysteries. I enter in silence, I depart in gratitude, Knowing that not even the primordial gods Have knowledge of Your true name or Secret, eternal form. O Goddess, I come into the bosom of Your protection and wisdom, Seeking virtue, and hail You as Isis the Life-Giver, Isis the Axis of the World, The Savior Who charts the way for the Lost upon the waters. Holy Isis, Your throne is virtue, And to Your disciples in Egypt You Are Auset, the Divine Seat, in Whose Lap the God dwells, in Whose wings Was reared the Sacred Falcon, In Whose lotus womb was nurtured The seed of the Resurrected One! O Ee-sees, the Traveler, the Lady upon the Waters! The sea is Your veil, churning, The mighty roar of the wind Your command, Ordering the heights and the depths in Your Feared name of Pelagia! O Queen of Heaven, circled by light, Diademed with the riches of constellations, Hallowed as the alabaster crescent and Silver disk! Bring me close to Your starry feet, To know Your paths traversed through The realm of the Gods. May Heaven open and Earth take witness, And may the Gods rejoice, For all that was ill is renewed in You, O Isis the Breath of Life! All that has passed away is brought back To life, for You are the Weaver of destinies, Whose command alone reorders the fates Dictated by the stars! O Veiled One, Ast-Amenti, come forward, Taking my hand, washing my heart, bestowing Knowledge! For You, O Bride of the West, Are the countenance of Eternity and Everlasting! You, O Isis the Queen of Heaven, are the ladder Upon which Souls are reunited with the celestial beginning, And in You I take refuge, in You I become a Disciple of the Sacred Way. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa, Rev. Anna Applegate Coming From the Heart: A Conversation With Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa & Anna Applegate~ Part Two11/13/2015 Anna Applegate: Do you feel that polytheism should be incorporated under a broad, encompassing "Paganism," or should it be its own tradition distinct from Paganism? If distinct, how do you see the communities relating to each other?
Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: This is a complicated and controversial question. If by “Polytheism” we agree that this refers to all traditions that accept the validity of many gods...that include the worship of many gods as a vital component of their identity...then yes, in these regards we might very well label all Polytheistic traditions as “Pagan”. Academics certainly do, when they are referring to the ancient pre-Christian religions of humankind. Academics almost always refer to all pre-Christian and/ or non-monotheistic beliefs as “pagan”. However, they mean pagan not with a capital p, as is used by modern adherents of Neopaganism, but as in not Christian, before Christianity, or gods and practices falling outside the domain of the Abrahamic faiths. My personal experience is that many individuals who refer to themselves as Polytheists try to distance what they believe and practice from the labels of Pagan and Paganism, simply because so many people instantly associate these terms with Wicca and Witchcraft, which are in many ways very different paths from, say, Hellenic Reconstructionism or Heathenry. There has also always been a rather negative connotation tacked on- admittedly very unfairly- to the term pagan, as used historically by Christians in order to denote and slander those not belonging to the army of Christ. This all gets very sticky when you start canvassing today's spiritual communities for their definition of precisely what Paganism is, and what it means to be Pagan. Is Paganism the practice of Witchcraft? Are Wiccans Pagans? Are all who believe in many gods Pagans, or is Paganism simply another wider term for anyone practicing an earth-centered religion or spirituality? Who, then, has a right to decide who is Pagan and who is not? With a lack of a central authority, as if there could ever be such a thing in today's spiritual climate, how can we place an absolute division between Paganism and Polytheism? It seems to me that there are so many grey areas, so many instances where Paganism and Polytheism mesh or intermingle, or at least share some similar components. I honestly feel that this has to be an individual question, left to each practitioner's discernment and ideals. I know a number of practitioners of various traditions who describe themselves as both Pagan and Polytheist, and plenty of others who like to draw a distinct line between the concepts of Paganism and Polytheism. Each has their own valid argument for the language they use or the terms they invoke. How about we start with respect? It all comes down to respecting the choices of others to belong or label or identify themselves in the way that is healthy for them as individuals. We may choose a different path or expression from others, but there needs to be a basic respect for the right of others to choose, just as we have our right to choose. This seems to me to be the best way to form healthy spiritual communities; communities that are strong and can accomplish Sacred Work more fully together, as peers and equals. I think it would be near impossible, and perhaps undesirable, for all who define themselves as Polytheists to be lumped together under one communal umbrella of belief. Even within Reconstructionist communities, such as Kemetic and Hellenic, there is fierce debate concerning use of the term polytheism. Multiply this by the number of groups, communities, and individuals who might identify themselves as Polytheists, then add to that the number of people who subscribe to both Polytheist and Pagan identifications, and the question of one or the other just gets drowned in the hubbub over what Polytheism is; how a belief, group or individual practitioner fits into the dictionary definition of polytheism, as opposed to a less clinical understanding of Polytheism as understood in contemporary spiritual circles. At the end of the day it all sounds like a bunch of noise to me, truth be told. Once again, I think we can get so caught up in the use of labels, identifications, and definitions of belief that we lose sight of our higher spiritual aims and Sacred Work. In my estimation, both Paganism and Polytheism serve very similar aims, and those are service to the Gods, and service to creation through communion with the Gods, together with our Ancestors. Ultimately the philosophical ramifications and debates must take a back seat to the work of actually engaging and honoring the Sacred Powers. If someone's idea of spiritual work is sitting in a corner and arguing over “Polytheism” versus “Paganism”, should we or shouldn't we, then I'll opt to excuse myself so that I can get busy getting down to the real work of honoring my Gods and Ancestors. Anna Applegate: A lot of Kemetic Goddesses have been adopted by traditions and philosophies outside of historically informed Kemetic practices. Goddesses like Sekhmet have been co-opted by the women's spirituality movement/Dianic Wicca and related views as a symbol of female emancipation from patriarchal mores. For example, I recently made the acquaintance of a Hermetic teacher here in Chicago who argues that Sekhmet is a "tantric goddess" like Kali and that "desire, ecstasy, and illumination are interrelated and fundamental to understanding Sekhmet and tantra." What is your take on that? Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: Firstly, I think it's very important for us to acknowledge how vast the Netjeru are, how vast the deities of all pantheons are. Attempts are often made to constrict deities into the roles we humans have assigned to them. We want a goddess of love to play her role with grace, and we somehow expect that she'll always show up in that capacity. We want a “mother goddess” to remain a mother, to adhere to those foremost qualities we've come to expect from our own biological mothers. We feel most comfortable with deities when we can label them...”god of war”, “fertility god”, “goddess of the household”, et cetera. People are often attracted to a specific goddess or god because that deity manifests traits or qualities they themselves have. For example, I am an iconographer, painter, sculptor and craftsman, and obviously a great part of my attraction to my patron and namesake Ptah is due to the fact that Lord Ptah is the Divine Artisan, historically venerated as the protector of painters and sculptors. So, it goes without saying that it was a very natural relationship to develop between an artisan and the Father of all artisans. My experience is that most Polytheists and Pagans share this kind of affinity with the gods they've chosen as their own. However, something that also happens is that people fall into a comfort zone with their gods, desiring to see and experience only those aspects that first attracted them to their divine patrons in the first place. The gods wind up being stereotyped, put into neat little boxes that fit comfortably into one's preconceptions and notions. Sometimes, the gods become almost one dimensional in the way their devotees see them...the old “goddess of love”, “god of war”, “goddess of healing” labels that may or may not have the significance to the deity we think they have. People are often threatened by the dynamic nature of the Gods, when the Gods demonstrate that they aren't going to operate according to the neat and tidy little labels we've tried to paste on them. In the case of the Netjeru of Kemet, these are gods who each have their own unlimited arsenal of names, forms, epithets, iconographic features, and powers or spheres of influence. The Netjeru cannot be pinned down with limited frameworks or labels such as “goddess of love”, “god of war”, “fertility god”, et cetera. Scholars and academics have always attempted to do this to some extent with the Goddesses and Gods of Egypt, and I think it's quite futile and grossly inappropriate. Each deity, each netjer has basic qualities or attributes that demonstrate a prominent aspect of its nature, however, these natures are fluid, changing from circumstance to circumstance of the deity's manifestation. Each geographic location, town, village, temple and shrine in Egypt has localized forms that are particular to that space, and these local forms each have powers, attributes, and iconography specific to that location, and these may or may not be visible in other locations. If one makes a true and detailed study of the iconography and names or epithets of any given deity in the Kemetic pantheon, one will recognize very quickly the futility of slapping one overall label on any netjer. Literally hundreds, and sometimes thousands of epithets, names or forms of some deities can be found in a single location source. Magnify this by the number of temples, shrines, papyri and artifacts that may exist in reference to that deity, and you are faced not only with an overwhelmingly complex pantheon of deities, but also individual deities who each have vast quantities of forms and names and attributes. So much for “god of war”, “goddess of love” labels! The reason I'm going into all of this is because your question touches on a sense of framework, a historical framework, for recognizing and accepting the roles the Netjeru of Kemet have to play in our lives. Reconstructionists are faced with the difficult task of trying to piece back together and recreate authenticity in the systems we develop for engaging our gods. We want to be as faithful as we can be to the way in which our Ancestors honored the Netjeru, and our motivation is meeting the Gods on Their own terms, according to the sights, sounds, tastes, gestures, and modes of worship the Gods have responded to for thousands of years. These are practices that have maintained the presences of the Gods actively in our world for immense stretches of time, and our goal as Reconstructionists is to strive to maintain that presence as strongly as we can, using the time honored and time tested tools handed down to us by the Ancients within the historical record. What happens if we disregard this? What happens when we remove the Netjeru from Their Kemetic context, and install Them within another cultural, spiritual framework? What happens when we strip that Kemetic framework away...that legacy of sights, sounds, smells, and gestures through which these deities have engaged humankind for thousands of years? Is anything lost or sacrificed in the process? Is something lost in translation, as it were. My first response is yes. The Netjeru first made Themselves known to human beings in Kemet, in that specific location, and used that land, and all of the attributes it possessed, in order to communicate Their powers to human beings. One can quite accurately say that the Netjeru as we know Them are the spiritual legacy of the ancient Egyptian land and people. Without these people and their land the Netjeru would still exist, of course, however, the system or technology for engaging Them would not have come down to us in the form it has. The Gods chose the land of Kemet for a reason, and They chose the people of Kemet as the custodians of that framework, that technology or tradition, through which They could be engaged. A near five-thousand year track record exists that shows us exactly how we can maintain these gods in our world, commune with Them, co-create with Them, maintain creation with Them. The ancient Egyptians believed that their system of writing, rites, rituals and temple traditions were handed down by the Gods during Zep Tepy, the First Time of the Gods, and that the proper maintenance of creation, Ma'at, depended on these things being continued and preserved. The original names of the Netjeru, the means of invoking Them, and the tools for accomplishing Their work in our world have all been preserved in the historical record. This is the record we have for direct access to these goddesses and gods, and I think we would be quite foolish not to use it. So, you have Kemetic deities being removed from Their native system of engagement and dropped into another. Do I think that works? Yes and no. I think it works for those who are doing it, otherwise they probably wouldn't do it, if they felt no response at all...if they could not achieve anything in the spiritual work they were trying to accomplish. Kemetic deities have always been borrowed by non-Kemetic spiritualities, including Wicca, Witchcraft, New Thought/ New Age circles, Golden Dawn...and the list could go on and on. I think people have always been attracted to certain Kemetic deities, especially Auset/ Isis and Sekhmet. We know the track record of the Goddess Auset throughout history, and have seen how this Goddess transcended geographical and cultural boundaries, language barriers and religions, and became one of the most celebrated cults of the Mediterranean world. This went far beyond the borders of Egypt, speaking to the hearts of people who had never heard of or experienced the ancient rites of Isis in Her native land. Isis became as much a goddess of the Roman world as She had been a goddess of the Egyptian world, in Her name of Auset. I suppose this brings us to one of the fundamental issues being debated today within the Reconstructionist, Heathen, and Neopagan communities, and that is cultural appropriation. Does a deity or religious, spiritual system belong to its culture of origination? Can deities be taken completely out of their original cultural context without dishonoring their integrity, their essence as recognized by their homegrown tradition? Can a culture take ownership of a deity, a tradition, a ritual...a spiritual framework? This is a hotly debated issue, and I'm not going to approach all the ramifications it provokes, but it is worth taking a look at how deities of various cultures have been adopted by foreigners, who have taken a deity out of its original cultural context, and have found in it something that speaks completely to their own culture. One sees this in so many religions throughout history. What do we make of the ancient Egyptians adopting West Semitic deities such as Baal, Anat, Astarte, and Reshep? These deities had their own identities, cults, and iconography firmly established before they were absorbed into the Egyptian religion, and yet they were adopted and honored by the Egyptians, had holy places and cults established for them, and were mingled freely with native Egyptian gods, without any apparent worry over their foreign origination. I think our ancient Ancestors were a lot more flexible than we are today in regards to cultural appropriation or adoption of gods from one pantheon into another. The ancient Mediterranean world especially became a hybrid of Egyptian-Hellenic, Hellenic-Roman, Egyptian-Hellenic-Roman culture and spirituality, beginning after the founding of Alexandria at the time of Alexander. This part of the Mediterranean transformed the ancient world through its free exchange of ideas, cultures, spiritualities, and customs. In the Greco-Roman period, we find this fascinating hybrid of deities...the fusion of traditional Egyptian deities with those of Greece and Rome. There is evidence to suggest that native Egyptians may not have been entirely keen on adopting such hybrids as readily as their Greek and Roman counterparts; but still, you have all these pantheons and cults striving to coexist and intermingle at the same time, and people seemed to do it without too much of a fuss. Religious ideas tend to travel and get adopted by other cultures. This has happened in practically every culture and country in regards to monotheism...the Abrahamic religions, which have been spread very far from their original geographic and cultural context, and have, each time they've been introduced into a new culture, become ingrained in their new setting via the language and modes of expression of that individual culture. Some traits of the original religious culture have been carried over, but many are changed or added to or blended with outside ideas. This has happened to Islam and Judaism, but it is seen in other religions, too, like Hinduism and Buddhism. Perhaps Reconstructionists are not so keen on the blending of pantheons or religious systems because we are keen on trying to piece back together a single religious system in a coherent and authentic way, which is far challenge enough without throwing other traditions into the mix. When pantheons and traditions are freely blended together, you do tend to lose sight of or water down the original elements that gave one system its framework...its flavor, if you will. Each religion or spiritual system is like a recipe; it has its own seasoning, flavor, and aroma. It speaks to the tastes of its practitioners in a very specific way. It engages the human heart and mind using very specific tools, and it engages its deity or deities in the same manner. When you start borrowing a little here, taking a little there, then mixing it all together in the same stew, you may create something unique or appealing to the senses, but you've lost the unique flavor of the original ingredients in the mix. The flavors have gotten all mixed up, and they no longer speak to the taste buds in the same way. That can be a shame, not only for us, but for the deities, too. They want to speak to us, know us, and engage with us, but they want to do it on their terms, not through some process of dismemberment and re-articulation, so that they can look and taste like whatever we want them to be at any given moment. It's something I think Pagans and Neopagans in general need to take more seriously, that these ancient goddesses and gods have their own identities and terms of manifestation that have existed intact for enormous spans of time, and they need to be honored, reverenced, and respected, not simply disregarded because these aren't convenient or easy to approach from outside their original cultural context. I think we have to look at how long the Netjeru have maintained a dialogue with human beings through the language, prayers, texts, practices, and trappings of Kemetic culture. Far longer than America or the West has existed; and we're coming along and saying, oh well, that was then, this is now, let's do it another way. What we're really doing when we disregard the original cultural context of the Netjeru is cutting ourselves off from the potency of the Ancestral Powers, who handed down and maintained these practices for thousands of years. We're also cutting ourselves off from that vital power, that essential ingredient that came into being during Zep Tepy, which is continuity, Ma'at. So many individuals and groups are throwing that term around like it's going out of style...Ma'at this and Ma'at that. What Ma'at really means is continuity, the original way of maintaining creation bestowed by the Netjeru. The Kemetic rites, rituals, and prayers are precisely that technology given to us by the Gods during Zep Tepy; the spiritual technology for maintaining the created world. Then we want to come along and change all of that, sweep it aside because we think we know better than Them? I don't think so. This is outright hubris, and it is the worst kind of violation of what Ma'at really means. But religion is an organic entity, it grows and develops and changes over time. This includes the Gods, Who are dynamic beings, fluid and ever changing, ever expanding. If we accept that the Netjeru are living gods, gods that still exist throughout creation, continuing creation, able and capable of demonstrating Their powers, then we must accept that They are not fixed in time and space, nor are They rooted to a single geographic location. This must be the case, otherwise, how are devotees of the Netjeru in Chicago or London experiencing powerful and authentic relationships with Them? People today are engaging these very ancient gods, and are taking part in a profound dialogue with the Sacred Powers that transforms lives, and provokes tremendous constructive change. The Netjeru are obviously still very active in our world today, even though that world and human societies are no longer comparable with what once existed in Kemet, in ancient Egypt. We have to acknowledge- if we acknowledge that our Gods still have something to offer to humankind in its present condition- that the Netjeru are reaching out to devotees in ways that devotees in the current era can understand and relate to personally. I do acknowledge these things, so I tend to be accepting of the fact that groups and individuals are connecting with the Netjeru outside the historically informed framework Kemeticism or Kemetic Reconstructionism provides. In these regards, we're seeing Goddesses like Auset (Isis) and Sekhmet being provided with roles that fill a spiritual vacuum profoundly felt by women in many parts of the world. Are we really that surprised that Auset, Isis, is continuing Her travels through the known world, appearing here as a Goddess of women, and there as a source of ecstatic awakening or personal empowerment? Should it come as such a surprise that a Goddess like Sekhmet...a truly fierce Goddess, Who represented to the ancient Egyptians a source of both destruction and magical healing...should be associated with other dynamic Goddesses like Durga or Kali? Can the Seven Arrows or fiery khamsin winds of Sekhmet be experienced in a new way; as the powers of provocation, dismantling the ego and the rampant thirst for self-satisfaction...replacing these with a kundalini-like awakening, a truly divine and impersonal, mystical awareness? I'd say yes, because it's obvious to me based on my many years of experience in the Goddess community that both women and men are having these kinds of experiences with Auset and Sekhmet; and, I've seen people's lives radically changed by brushes with these Goddesses in contexts completely outside historically informed Kemeticism. As I mentioned before, one of my notes of caution concerning Kemetic Reconstructionism is that it can be all too easy to fall into an inflexible mind frame or intellectualism; where the demand for academic evidence or historical verification overrides and replaces one's ability to have immensely personal spiritual experiences with the Netjeru that may at times fall outside of what is self-evident in the historical record. This has been my very frustrating experience over the years in my Kemetic work, where individuals will actually express the belief that the Netjeru do not operate outside of what can be academically verified by source texts! Again and again, these kind of attitudes crop up, and what is left over is something very dry, very devoid of spiritual vitality and sacred power; in short, historical reenactment, a “religion” crafted from the script of Egyptology. This kind of “religion” will never survive or fill people's lives with joy and meaning. One cannot take a scholastic thesis or academic volume and make that a source of spiritual nourishment on its own. One needs a firm relationship with the Sacred Powers in order to do this; the kind of relationship opened by way of an animated, sincere and continuous dialogue with living gods! The enormous legacy of academics and Egyptologists is only a springboard for an even richer legacy of authentic spiritual experience to be gathered from Egypt's most ancient religion. And how do we really access that legacy? Not through books. Not through a thesis or Egyptology symposium. Not from the most well argued scholastic endeavor. The only way we can really reawaken or restore the ancient Egyptian religion is by having an immediate and intimate engagement with its Netjeru, its Goddesses and Gods, Who will never, never be limited by an academic script or intellectual framework, no matter how masterful it may be. So, even though I consider myself a Kemetic Reconstructionist, I am certainly not placing restrictions on my experiences with the Netjeru I serve, limiting my understanding of Them and Their sacred rites to what has been academically verified. The Netjeru do not operate that way! As I spoke about earlier, the Netjeru are much more vast in Their manifestations than human beings are capable of comprehending...of that I'm certain! The Gods will not be shoved into neat little boxes that fit tidily on a book shelf, to be accessed when and how it is convenient for us. The Netjeru are dynamic, alive, vibrant and expansive. They fill this creation with Their powers and manifestations, each of which is legion on its own. Who am I to say that Sekhmet cannot choose to associate Herself with Kali if that is how She feels She can engage with one of Her devotees? We are no longer accessing these gods in a Nilotic context. Gone are the days when the Netjeru were maintained in vast temple estates sustained by the royal largesse. The unlimited stream of offerings the Netjeru once enjoyed on a daily basis are gone. Our world has drastically changed, and is no longer a wholly polytheistic society aimed at serving and honoring the Gods. My personal view is that the Netjeru of Kemet, together with all the ancient pantheons, are starving for our offerings, our reverence, and participation with us in the continued maintenance of Their creation. I believe that all the Gods are, at this late stage, open and ready to receive whatever offerings and attention humankind has to offer, even if that engagement comes through sources beyond the original cultural context of Their native worship. I feel it's most important that the Gods be honored, that people approach Them sincerely and with true respect. Be generous. Be honest in your intentions, and bring the very best you have to offer, however humble or seemingly inconsequential it may be. Even if your prayers are not taken directly from the ancient temples or spoken in their original tongue, let your words come directly from the heart, and invite the Gods to receive your adoration at Their table of offerings. Let whatever you do be done in a spirit of true veneration, not haphazardly or halfheartedly. Do not make demands of the Gods and then banish Them. Once you invite Them, offer Them a place to stay, and be as hospitable to Them as you would be to your most cherished friend, family member, spouse or lover. So, personally, my concerns regarding Goddesses like Sekhmet being adopted by groups and individuals outside a Kemetic context are a matter of intentions and respect. If you're inviting Sekhmet to take part in your Circle or Coven, or you're asking the Goddess for Her ability to awaken your latent Tantric power...if you're using Her in conjunction with traditions and practices not historically associated with Her, then make sure your motivations and modes of operation are sincere, and include giving the Goddess the reverence and respect due to Her greatness. Do not exclude the rite of offering, however you perform it! Feed Her your prayers and your material offerings, as these will establish a direct energetic link between yourself and the Goddess, which is vital for the accomplishment of all Sacred Work. Give to the Goddess if you are asking Her to give; otherwise, do not invoke Her, for all Sacred Work is an act of interdependence between ourselves and our Gods and Ancestors. They give because we give, and we should give because They give. It is the law of reciprocity, which is also the foundation for the maintenance of creation the Ancients called Ma'at. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa, Rev. Anna Applegate Coming From the Heart: A Conversation With Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa & Anna Applegate~ Part One11/13/2015 O Gods, I come forth With my heart in my hand; O Gods receive me! O Ancestors, I come forth With Your heart in my hand; May I follow in Your footsteps! O Gods, I summon You to receive me; For I am the kin of my Ancestors Among You, Whom You in the Fields of the Blessed have received! O Gods, I open the Gates! O Ancestors, wide open are the Doors! My body, the Doors. My members, the Gates. My feet, the Holy Path. I come forth with my heart in my hand! - From “The Prayer of Consecration” by Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa. Introduction This week I had the great pleasure of being interviewed by the sparkling and gifted Anna Applegate, Executive Editor of Isis-Seshat, the quarterly journal of the worldwide Fellowship of Isis. Our conversation centered around the theme "Dark Nights of the Soul", to which the current Autumn issue of Isis-Seshat is dedicated; thus I was able to tell, for the very first time, my own harrowing dark nights of the soul, which concluded with my taking formal vows as a hem-netjer or priest of the God Ptah, and the legal adoption of my Kemetic faith name. My dialogue with Anna came at a very significant stage in the current initiations I am undertaking as part of my spiritual path, and this "looking back" to my dark nights of the soul has given me the chance to reexamine my growth and motives as a Kemetic and spiritual journeyer. Our conversation dug deep into many issues, and some controversial, facing the Neopagan and Reconstructionist Communities today. How do we choose to label ourselves and our beliefs? Are Pagans and Polytheists part of the same community? What benefit does the framework of Kemetic Reconstructionism provide to today's Kemetics? Is Kemetic Reconstructionism really necessary, valid? Can the Netjeru of Kemet be approached from outside historically informed practices? How do our Gods lead us through our dark nights of the soul? All of these issues, and much more are explored in this powerful dialogue, which seeks to offer its readers insights into their own relationships with the ancient Gods, and a resonance with others who may be walking the very same path. Enjoy! About Anna Applegate Chicago native Rev. Anna Applegate is a pious Polytheist and spirit worker who tends to roll out a welcome mat to chthonic Powers in particular. She became active in the Chicago Fellowship of Isis community in 2002 and has also been initiated into Gardnerian Wicca, the West African religion of Ifa, and Co-Freemasonry (she is a Master Mason in good standing in the Eastern Order of International Co-Freemasonry, Sirius Lodge, No. 21). In 2012, she was legally ordained as a Fellowship of Isis Priestess dedicated to the Goddesses Nebet-Het (Nephthys), Bast, and Hekate Khthonia by the late Lady Loreon Vigne at the Temple of Isis in Geyserville, California. Anna is the founder of the Iseum of the Rekhet Akhu, whose mission is to highlight the inter-relatedness of the communities of the living and the dead and to cultivate transfigured spirits (Akhu) in human form. Anna holds an M.A. degree in English Literature and Linguistics from Loyola University Chicago. A wordslinger-for-hire, her devotional poetry appears in the Scarlet Imprint anthologies Datura (2010) and Mandragora (2012). Her nonfiction and photography appears in the Bibliotheca Alexandrina anthology to Sekhmet entitled Daughter of the Sun (2015). Anna is honored to serve as the Executive Editor of Isis-Seshat, the quarterly journal of the worldwide Fellowship of Isis. Visit her personal blog and share in her adventures in Polytheistic Priestessing: https://amoretmortem.wordpress.com. With her fiance and fellow Hekate devotee, Daniel, she is launching a site dedicated to Hekate Khthonia and Hermes Khthonios: www.hermekate.com Anna Applegate: I'm always excited to meet fellow devotional polytheists, whether or not they venerate the Powers of the eastern Mediterranean like I do. How did you first come to love the Neteru of Kemet? Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: I find that the label polytheist is pretty loaded these days...charged with a certain amount of controversy in dialogues taking place within various spiritual communities. One hears terms like 'hard polytheist' or 'soft polytheist', and there are fierce debates going back and forth as to who is who, and what can or can't be labeled polytheism. I've found myself having this discussion fairly frequently in my Kemetic work, with individuals who are very concerned with just how I identify the Netjeru (Gods) and Their relationship to Netjer, deity in general. Am I, as a self-avowed polytheist, taking the stance that the Gods are wholly unique and distinct from the Creator God...as in Their own individual personalities that are self-determined, self-governing...or do I believe that ultimately the Netjeru are different forms and/ or manifestations of one hidden supreme deity called Netjer? I have to admit that sometimes I find these isms and debates over labels incredibly constricting, irritating, and distracting from the real work of service to the Sacred Powers. At the end of the day I put my emphasis on action, on cultic service and devotional work, not on philosophical speculation. Ultimately, the precise origins of the Gods- of any god- are beyond the comprehension of human beings. Our place is not to reason why, but to get down to the work of organizing our lives in such a way as to be of service, to the Gods and to creation as a whole. We can waste a great deal of precious time agonizing over this issue of ism...polytheism, henotheism, is deity really one acting as the All or the many...or we can choose to simply honor the Gods as gods, as our Sacred Powers, and accept the limitations our mortality, our humanity carries in terms of how much we can ever really know deity. That being said, we as human beings are defined by the language we use to express ourselves. There's no getting around the significance our culture places on how we choose to label our identity, our beliefs, our lifestyle and manner of connecting with the world around us. I'm somewhat dissatisfied by the application of terms such as polytheism or henotheism to very ancient systems of belief that preexist the advent of such language or modes of thinking. To me it seems a bit out of place. I'm sure that the Ancients would have expressed it as 'we believe in the Gods. We honor the Gods', period. To attach a philosophical framework to that...one that comes from another time and culture...seems very misguided to me. I believe in the Netjeru, the Goddesses and Gods of the ancient Egyptians, and I view the gods I serve as wholly distinct, unique, and individual Sacred Powers, each carrying Their own personalities, manifestations, and spheres of influence. Are They related to the Creator God, absolutely, just as human children carry on the DNA of their biological parents. However, the Gods are not hindered or limited by Their connection to the Creator God, and They are certainly not mere ornaments, names or different sides of the Creator's personality. I accept that each of the Netjeru is broader in Their forms and powers than I can possibly comprehend, and that each of Them can be and express anything They choose to. Ultimately, the Creator God is not sole or unique or without equal, but shares its creation with the Gods. I do not believe in god with a capital g, the one, indivisible god of the Abrahamic religions. Even though I was raised in a very traditional and strict Christian family, I have always rejected the idea that there is a single omnipotent “God” fueling and controlling creation. So just what does this make me? I choose to stand by the terms polytheist and polytheism...and in particular Kemetic polytheism...to describe what I believe within the limitations our language imposes on us, even though terms like polytheist and polytheism are quite obviously not ancient Egyptian in origin. How did I first come to adore the Netjeru of Kemet? I'd rather put it that They came to me, and not the other way around! My experience is that our Gods, our Sacred Powers come to us. They make Themselves known, through gestures big and small. They flirt with us, play with us...almost in a hide and seek kind of way. And I'm not intending to sound trivial here, to somehow cheapen or lessen the very powerful, life-altering ways in which our Gods make Their presences known in our lives. But I have always found that the Gods will find a door or a window, or a crack beneath the side door, in order to introduce Themselves and get our attention. It may be through little things at first, like a picture here or a song lyric there, or a 'coincidence' that turns out to be nothing of the kind. Our Gods will find Their way into our life in ways They know will get our attention, and each person is different in these regards. When I was six-years-old I found the ancient Egypt section of the Encyclopedia Britannica, and the first thing that arrested my attention were the full color images of Egyptian deities...statues and reliefs...which struck a very deep chord in me. And then there were the temples. These places did not seem foreign to me, mysterious or new, but rather like places I knew, that had once been part of my life. Even at this very young age, long before I heard terms like reincarnation or past lives, I had a definite sense, an instinct or certainty, that I had once lived in this ancient culture and had served its gods. And these gods, too, felt familiar to me, not like mythological beings from a dead religion or defunct civilization, but gods that were present and very much alive, active in the here and now. My father was a humanities major at San Diego State University, so he maintained a very well-stocked library of books on archaeology, anthropology, ancient Near Eastern civilizations, and Classical history. It was within this armory that I first found the type of books that guided my fascination with ancient Egyptian history and religion...an obsession, really. For the first three years of that relationship with ancient Egypt, I focused my attention on the Egyptian preoccupation with the afterlife and immortality, and how the Goddesses and Gods guided this framework. My father often took me to the Museum of Man in Balboa Park, San Diego, which had a very small Egyptian collection, including two mummies. I was quite preoccupied with what I perceived as a spiritual technology demonstrated by the mummification process, and in texts like the Pert-em-hru, the Book of Coming Forth By Day...the Book of the Dead. Of course, all I had access to in those days were the books by E.A. Wallis Budge, which even then were quite dated and full of errors; but I used Budge's Egyptian Book of the Dead as a springboard for developing, through my own intuition, a personal relationship with Egypt's ancient gods. I always felt guided in that relationship by many pairs of unseen hands, which seemed to always direct me to the right resources at the right time. The catalyst for my real relationship with the Netjeru of Kemet...the one person of influence I can trace everything back to...is Lady Loreon Vigné, Arch Priestess of Isis and foundress of the California Temple of Isis. I can't answer your question without telling how she came into my life, without giving her the credit she richly deserves. It was about six months before my 10th birthday, and my parents and I were spending an afternoon in the shopping district of historic Old Town San Diego. We discovered a fine art atelier by the name of Dergance Sculpture Studio, which specialized in the high quality reproductions of the Tutankhamun treasures produced by Artisans Guild International. These included magnificent statues of Egyptian goddesses and gods. It goes without saying that I was in heaven, but finding this little studio was the single most important event in my life. Everything else that has happened to me in my spiritual life since can be traced back to the relationships I developed by way of Dergance Studio. The studio was owned jointly by a delightful senior couple, Maxine and Robert Dergance, and Maxine especially was very interested in all things spiritual, being an avid student of the Occult, and a believer in reincarnation and all things esoteric. It was from my conversations with her that I first became cognizant of the deeper meanings behind my ever growing obsession with ancient Egyptian religion and funerary beliefs, and it was through her that I was introduced to Lady Loreon Vigné, who was in those days still called Lora. Maxine and Lora Vigné had apparently been friends for years, and it was through Dergance Sculpture Studio that Lora had acquired her generous collection of Egyptian statuary. Lora Vigné and her partner Paul Ramses had established the Isis Oasis Sanctuary and Retreat Center in Geyserville, California, which was dedicated to the exploration of ancient Egyptian spirituality and Goddess consciousness. Lora and Paul were legally ordained ministers of the Goddess Isis, and part of their mission was to reintroduce the ancient worship of Isis into the modern age. Maxine urged me to write to Lora Vigné, and the rest, as they say, is history. Lora and Paul immediately took me under their wings, helping me to develop a serious attitude in my studies of Egyptian history and religion, but also to begin an investigation into broader areas of spirituality and Occultism in general. Something that I always admired about Lady Loreon was her capacity to push the boundaries of her own beliefs and practices, to never grow into a rigid or dogmatic pattern of thinking. Loreon was a student of all the world's religions and spiritual customs, and she really dove head first into everything she could get her hands on. Her appetite for research and reading was boundless, and these are attitudes she strove to pass on to me when we first became acquainted. Both she and Paul sent me countless books, not only on ancient Egyptian history and religion, but also in esoteric studies and general spirituality. Lora had founded the Isis Society For Inspirational Studies, her first non profit educational organization, into which I was inducted around the time of my 10th birthday. Even at that very early stage, I believe that Lora and Paul had it in mind to see me eventually ordained as a minister of the Isian faith. It was certainly due to their generous tutelage that my obsession with the Goddesses and Gods of Egypt developed into a heartfelt devotion and sense of service. The Goddess Auset, or Isis, was guiding me through my close relationship with Lora Vigné and Paul Ramses. I'd say it was inevitable that I took the holy mantle as a Priest of the Goddess. Anna Applegate: What is the appeal, specifically, of the Reconstructionist path as far as your personal practices go? Were you ever involved in other Pagan traditions? Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa: The appeal of Reconstructionism for me is that it allows us to come as close as we can to the way in which our ancient Ancestors communed with their gods. The Netjeru are the deities first worshiped by the ancient Egyptians, and it is their more than 4,000 years of experience that informs us how these gods have manifested, how They have made Themselves known to humankind. There is a tremendous track record, if you will, preserved in papyri and letters, on monuments and in tombs, in temples and shrines, and on artifacts such as amulets, ex-votos, and stelae. There are museums and archives full of evidence for the devotional practices and cults these gods inspired for close to five millennia, and that is a huge burden of proof enforcing just how momentous a role Egypt's gods played in the lives of her people. And how can we simply ignore that evidence today? How is it possible for us to speak the names of these gods, to call on Them to answer our prayers, or serve Them in places we are calling “temples” in Their names, unless we first take heed of the ways in which the Ancients developed such a relationship with these same Gods? We can't possibly believe that we know better than our Ancestors...that we- especially we in America and the West, who live in societies and cultures only a few hundred years old- know better than a culture whose religious customs and traditions lasted longer than that of any other civilization on our planet. I'd say that the ancient Egyptians knew exactly what they were doing, because they had almost 5,000 years to perfect the way in which they engaged the Gods and derived blessings from Them. The rituals and sacred texts we have preserved from the temples, tombs, and monuments were passed down for thousands of years, so there is a tremendous build-up of energy in them...staying power, if you will. This may sound like a funny comparison, but just think of the way modern companies market their products...”Bayer Aspirin since 1899”. People trust tried and tested brands that have shown their effectiveness and integrity over time, and from my point of view, the ancient Egyptian way of communing with the Netjeru has proven its case over the past 5,000 years of human history. What can we today market in its place? That's not to say that more contemporary brands of Egyptian spirituality- Kemetic Wicca, for example- can't offer us genuine spiritual experiences with the Netjeru; I'm not saying that at all. However, I think there's something very pure, very powerful and primordial in the ancient and Ancestral way of accomplishing sacred work. It's a matter of getting as close to the source as it's possible to be; and who is closer to that source, we today, or the Ancients, our Ancestors, who had their sacred texts and spiritual practices handed down to them in an unbroken chain from the earliest times. If we look at other ancient faiths, faiths that have survived the advent of monotheism down into the current era, we can see the immediate value in Reconstructionism. Take Hinduism, for example. The Brahmin or priestly caste of the Hindu religion is responsible for the preservation of the correct ways to perform ritual in order to attain the blessings of the Gods. Brahmins have been invested with thousands of years of Vedic knowledge and tradition, which includes the performance of sacred rites going back before recorded history. These things have been preserved because Brahmins have passed them down throughout the centuries, from priest to priest, ensuring their purity and the original seeds of spiritual potency. In ancient Egypt there was certainly this same kind of maintenance of sacred traditions within the priesthood, where knowledge of sacred texts and rituals was restricted within the priestly profession, and passed down through the temple record from generation to generation. We can see direct evidence of the longevity of Egyptian religious practices and beliefs by examining the records clearly recorded from temple to temple. There is continuity. There are rituals that existed from Old Kingdom times that we can clearly see were carried down until the Christian Era. What Reconstructionism strives to do is use this continuity in the historical record to the advantage of spiritual practitioners in the current era who are trying to tap into the original sources of power prevalent in the traditional, ancient relationship between the Ancestors and the Netjeru. It's there in the historical record. We have the actual texts used by the Ancestors for thousands of years. We know how to read them. In many cases we can even work out an approximation of how the Ancients actually pronounced them in their own tongue. We have well preserved temples with basically step-by-step instructions on how to carry out the rituals, with clear depictions of the cult images and instruments of worship. There is this very mistaken notion in some current spiritual circles that we have lost so much of the ancient Egyptian sacred legacy that we can't possibly know it enough to reconstruct it accurately. That is absolutely false! We have much more available to us in the historical record than most other Reconstructionist communities. All it takes is intelligence, diligence, and a sincere desire to reconnect with our ancient Ancestors. It is their tradition, after all, and since they practiced it perfectly for almost 5,000 years, shouldn't we who follow in their footsteps give them the benefit of the doubt? I think so! Reconstructionism has given me a very solid framework for recovering and piecing back together the rich spiritual legacy left to us in the historical record by the ancient Egyptians, and this very much applies to my work as a priest of Ptah. When I founded Temple of Ptah Nevada in 2009, my goal was to piece back together the original, ancient ritual forms for serving Lord Ptah in the temple environment. I wanted to find every inscription, every prayer...every scrap of information from ancient times that could help us today in our understanding of who Ptah is and how He has manifested throughout history. It was inevitable that the Reconstructionist approach would have to be adopted, and that approach is at its roots a scholastic, academic approach...researching specialist texts and volumes, scouring Egyptological theses for every reference to Ptah and his historical worship, no matter how obscure or seemingly uninformative. This search has been very discouraging at times, very enlightening at others, but it has yielded solid results that have greatly enriched my relationship with my Netjer, and my spiritual walk in general. I feel that the Recon approach has better connected me with my Ancestors in the tradition, and to those ancient temples of Ptah that served the very same god I am serving now. There is this amazing and vibrant link forged with the Ancestral Powers when one is chanting or speaking the very same prayers used 3,000 years ago. It loans one's sacred life this thread of meaning stretching back thousands of years into the distant past, which means that one is partaking of a near-limitless reservoir of divine energy, built up over the millennia. That kind of resonance is hard to come by when one is just making something up on the spot, or creating something entirely new. New can be beautiful, and so too can spontaneity; however, new ritual forms have yet to build up that reservoir of power that extensive usage over time can generate. When we create something entirely new in our spiritual practice, we aren't necessarily connecting directly with the Ancestral Powers, which is historically very important in the worship of the Netjeru. Within the ancient Egyptian experience of the Sacred, traditions are maintained for very long periods of time without being altered, and within this ancient system there is precedence, which the Ancients believed was established in Zep Tepy, the First Occasion or Time of the Gods. Everything closer to Zep Tepy retains that holy power, which dissipates the farther you move away from the First Time. So, Reconstructionism is a valid way for us to recover our Ancestral links and engage the most ancient practices through which the life-giving, life-affirming blessings of our Gods may be engendered. My one word of caution concerning Reconstructionism is not to fall into the trap of taking the religious experience and making it something of an intellectual experiment. I have encountered this a number of times over the years in my Kemetic work, where individuals and groups are so adamantly opposed to any experience or element that falls outside academic scholarship, that they wind up creating a very artificial experience of Kemeticism, much more akin to historical reenactment than to a living spiritual tradition engaging living gods. The scholastic record is very deep, and Egyptologists have certainly given Reconstructionists a vital legacy in the reclamation of our ancient rites and authentic texts. However, we must remember that religion and spirituality are living and organic frameworks for communing with the Divine. Without heart, without intuition, faith and feeling...without reverence and a direct relationship with the Gods, one cannot grow spiritually or be fed by the Sacred Powers. This has to come from the heart, not solely the head. Our cerebral capacity alone cannot give us a window into the Divine world. That requires a certain amount of faith in that which we cannot quantify or measure. That means we have to set aside the books and the brain, and hit the temple floor with the service of the heart. If Kemetic Reconstructionists refuse to acknowledge that our Netjeru are living gods, active in the here and now, working through the very world we are currently inhabiting, then we run the risk of taking these sacred rites and reducing them to nothing but so much mummery...ye olde Renaissance faire in ancient Egyptian getup. I have attended Reconstructionist rituals that sounded more like an Egyptology symposium than anything religious or mystical, and there is absolutely nothing more useless to the human soul than dressing up mere historical reenactment and daring to call it authentic religion. The Netjeru are not limited to one specific time frame or mode of worship. They are under no obligation to follow even the most ancient words or formulas, if these are used in any way other than to glorify Them. You can take an authentic text and follow it to the letter, but if you do so without heart, without feeling and genuine reverence, the Gods will refuse to be engaged, and your work will ring hollow, without any truly fulfilling, lasting response. Many people who know me in a strictly Kemetic context may be surprised to hear that not only have I been active in other sacred traditions, but am to this day initiated in non-Kemetic traditions, and offer devotion to other pantheons. If by “Pagan” you are referring to Neopaganism, Wicca, Witchcraft or Western Occult traditions, the answer is no. I have nothing but respect for these others traditions, for the Craft and like-minded paths, but I have not devoted serious time to studying them, nor have I practiced them, simply because they have never called to me personally. I have always been, from the very beginning of my religious and spiritual life, called by the pantheons and cults of the Ancient Near East, the Mediterranean world, and to some systems of South Asia, namely Tibetan Buddhism and Hinduism. I am also a devotee of the Religio Romana or pre-Christian religion of Rome, and have an affinity for some of the deities and practices of the ancient Hellenic religion. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa, Rev. Anna Applegate I adore Ptah the Great Sculptor of Life,
Giver of all good things to humankind, Giver of all gifts unto the nations of the world, The Great Father of humankind Who bestowed The breath of life to all living things! He gave the gift of the Sacred Fire to humankind to Awaken its flesh from darkness and turn away chaos. He fashioned the body of humankind, bestowing life to form, Opening up the mouths of all Kas with His arm of divine power. I adore Ptah the Lord of All Life Who opened up the heart of My Ka, giving life to the Eternal Body dwelling within my flesh! The type of relationship I have with Lord Ptah is the closest relationship a human being can have with a deity. It is called "God-owned" in Heathenry. This means that everything in my life, including my very life, belongs first and foremost to Ptah. If He says pick up and move your life for me, I do. If He says I need to do a work, I do it. He is my Father, and the only being Who has that claim legitimately on my flesh, and my soul. My life is lived completely as His vessel, and that is a choice I made of my own free will, because the love I bear Him is so great that the thought of being separated from Him in any way is unthinkable. I cannot say I know Him, because He is truly unknowable and beyond human comprehension, but I know that I am His, completely and without condition. This kind of love for a deity cannot be jumped into or casually achieved. I have literally walked through death for my Netjer, my Father Ptah, and my life is His to do with as He desires. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa We always have needs to bring before our Gods. This seems to be human nature. We have Sacred Powers for a reason; They bring us the things we need most in our life, not least of which is emotional and physical survival. We pray for relief from our bad back or migraine headaches. We pray for that important promotion at work...the one we need so that we can finally afford to fix that used car of ours that is far beyond its sell by date. We pray for healing in our human relationships too, for love and acceptance and help to repair our family ties. We constantly bring our cares to the Gods, because They are there for us, really there for us, and They want us to commune with Them as we would with our closest allies.
But we need to remember that the Gods, like our biological parents, wish to hear from us not only when we need to borrow money or ask for something we want; They need to hear from us just because we love Them, and we're grateful for the things They bring into our life. I'm talking about gratitude, folks. I've been asked recently how it happens that I have this very close relationship with my Netjeru...with Lord Ptah and Lady Sekhmet, with Auset and Her Sacred Family. How do I have such a direct and heartfelt exchange taking place at all times between myself and my Gods? There isn't some deep, mystical, hidden secret in answer to this. Quite simply put, I show my gratitude, every single day! The first thing I do when I get up in the morning is hit the Shrine floor. That's right. Before I get my coffee, read through my emails or check my social media, I'm on the floor doing my prostrations. I light the candles in the Shrines and make my offering of incense, and I pour out libations of beer and wine for the Gods and the Ancestors. I say thank you, and I let my Netjeru know that They come first in my life. When I say my morning prayers, I put the Gods above all. I mentally and emotionally clear everything else from my personal space, no matter how pressing or vital or important these external things may seem to be. The first part of each day is reserved for my Gods, for honoring Them and making sure that They are my ultimate priority. Throughout my day, no matter what I'm engaged in, I take little snippets of time in the back of my mind just to say a prayer, bring my focus back to Netjer, feeling that sense of gratitude and connection with Them. Because I do this every single day, my Gods know me, They respond immediately to me, and They give me Their direct presences throughout all of my daily concerns. I've said it before and I'll say it again; our relationships with our Gods are a two way street. The Gods are going to engage us and meet us with the same effort we are willing to give Them. Give a little, get a little. Give a lot, get a lot. If you only give a few scant moments here and there, if you aren't taking your relationships with your Gods as a serious priority, then They are going to remain a very casual presence in your life. If you want to have that close connection that remains with you at all times, then you will have to prioritize it, work for it, and earn it, as I have. The Gods give because we give, and They engage because we engage. The first step of engagement is learning to come first to the table, show your gratitude through offering, and truly, respectfully give your best self to the Gods. When we make our relationships with the Sacred Powers our priority, we find a source of strength and power and healing that can never be depleted. We find our Gods as close to us as our biological family or dearest friends. In Them we will find healing and empowerment, despite our shortcomings or failures. But first, we have to take the vital step of making that connection, respectfully and lovingly. Our key is gratitude. Give to the Gods because They have given to you, and in so doing, you will have everything you really need. All text and photo copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa All praise to You, mighty Sobek,
Son of Neith whose arrows are with Him! Beloved lord, the Great, the raging and fearsome, hidden in His waters, the flooding in His time of becoming. Yours is the face of Ra in the First Time; Dazzling, the waters are parted before You, all green things sprout from the void, the vault shudders at the moment of Your birth. All praise to You! O Lord of Green things, Your body brings to life all that has passed away, the Great River swells as You swell, and Your ardor becomes the rutting of the beasts in their seasons. All praise to You! Beneficence of the waters, the Earth receives Your bounty. Radiance of the Disk, humankind thrives on account of You. O Lord of Love, Sobek swollen between His thighs, goddesses follow after You, their hearts ensnared by Your potency. Great Sobek, You fill the bodies of men with strength, while women become the bearers of Your seed. All praise to You! O Sobek, wandering between the waters, cherished in the darkness, acclaimed by His light, fearsome in His body, turn Your terror towards my enemies and Your bounty to my hands. May Your glory reflect the glory of Ra in my limbs, and Your invincible love be the shield of my heart. All praise to You! All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa Sekhmet the Eye of Ra, the Great Goddess, Mistress of Heaven, Great of Slaughter, She Who Heals. The Goddess Sekhmet manifests in ways that seem to contradict or work against one another. This is a Goddess Who nearly ended the human race, Who relished the blood and carnage of Her victims, Who seeks vengeance when the Gods are dishonored. Her Seven Arrows are the plagues, storms, waves of searing heat, and terror of death. We cannot come before Her with anything other than awe, reverence, and respectful fear. How do we embrace Her, love Her? More importantly, why would we?
There are difficult Netjeru, like Sutekh ( Setesh, Set), Who at first appear to go very much against the grain of our human sensibilities. We want our Gods to be beautiful, tender, generous, strong, but not out of control. But that is precisely what the Netjeru ultimately are. They are Gods, and we are humans. They are the Eternal, and we are subject to the whims of immediate mortality. Gods like Sekhmet and Sutekh terrify us because we know, deep down in our gut, that They bring us the very face of REALITY, without candy coating or sweetness. They bring us our medicine, and They make us swallow it, without a spoonful of sugar! Sekhmet is the merit or "beloved", "spouse" of the Creator Ptah, and this seems at first a very strange match. Lord Ptah, for all intents and purposes, is a benevolent creator-god Who hears our prayers and watches over craftspeople and the arts. He's kindly, "benevolent of countenance" (wen-nefer her); so, why Sekhmet? Beyond the academic approach of how cults and deities intermingle, we can see, if we actually engage Sekhmet, that Lord Ptah chose Her, quite wisely, because Sekhmet is the most dynamic Goddess Whose very embodiment is the sekhem or vital power through which creation can evolve. Sekhmet is the necessary ingredient within the creative process, which always begins with a certain explosiveness or violence. Think of the pain of childbirth, yet its ultimate joyous conclusion. Sekhmet IS the pain of violent contractions and the hand that tears life from the flesh...She is the process of beginnings. Sekhmet watches over the processes that impact our mortal condition the most, thus She is the Patroness of physicians and healing. But She is also the Physician of the heart. She gives the boon (hetep) of peace (hetep) at the time of trauma, even if She uses that trauma ultimately to our benefit. This is what Gods like Sekhmet and Sutekh really do, so how can we NOT embrace Them, fully and deeply, and give Them our sincere respect? The terrible presence of Sekhmet is only caused by our fear of our own mortality, and the fire of our mind and emotions, and our ego, running out of control. Sekhmet threatens to tame and harness these forces for our own good, and that is why we can also call Her the Good Goddess. She is good, beautiful, and necessary, the Goddess Who appears when we need to take the right kind of medicine, even if it goes down very hard. It is Her hand that touches the heart with healing, soothing, and ultimately profound peace. To love Her is to come into the awareness of our fullest passions, emotions, intellect and physical vitality. No matter what course we travel, Sekhmet the Eye of Ra is traveling beside us, alive in Her terror as the Great Goddess with the healing hands. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa How do we know what our Gods want from us? How do we know what They expect from us? How can we please Them, honor Them? People who are new to Kemeticism often confide in me how much they want to engage the Netjeru, but are afraid of offending the Gods, or making mistakes in the process of trying to connect with Them. What advice do I have for those who have these very legitimate concerns?
Within the Heathen Community (contemporary followers of the Norse Gods), there is a term that I think can apply equally well to the beliefs and activities of Kemeticists, Kemetic Reconstructionists, and to other Recon communities: UPG, otherwise known as unverified personal gnosis. This term is used to describe those personal spiritual experiences that fall outside the realm of authenticated source texts, lore/ mythos or the historical record. These are very personal experiences that many devotees believe are communicated by their gods, but cannot otherwise be traced within the generally accepted literature or historic track record of the tradition. Throughout the many years I have been in contact with others who profess a belief in Kemeticism, I have encountered a fairly common phenomenon, which I think can best be described as UPG. Individuals subscribing to Kemeticism tend to develop very close relationships with their Netjeru (Gods), so much so that the Gods take on active roles in the lives of Their devotees, becoming almost part of their family. The Gods tend to hold conversations with us in our heart, send us signs in the outer world, and connect with us in ways that truly feel like our relationships with our biological family, closest friends or peers. That is because the Gods want to be part of our life directly. Unlike the mainstream monotheistic religions, where the deity tends to be viewed as separate from his creation, and removed from the intimate lives of humankind, the Netjeru of Kemet have shown in the track record of history that They are very engaged with the material world, and are active in the daily lives of human beings. In contemporary times, devotees of the Netjeru often find it difficult to access the academic, scholastic resources on the Gods, sacred texts, and religious practices of Kemet, and feel obliged to connect with the Netjeru on their own terms. This can often lead to some very colorful contemporary practices that are not necessarily linked with those of ancient times. I have corresponded with a devotee of Bastet who swore that the Goddess adored the fruit flavored gummy fish she had been placing on the altar. Okay. Who am I to question personal displays of affection between a Netjer and their admirer? If an offering is truly given out of love and respect for the deity, then I have to accept that this is a good action, even if I question the rightness of offering a candy treat of little nutritional value to a great goddess. My point is that UPG, unverified personal gnosis, seems to be a strong force amongst those who are trying to reconnect with very ancient faiths that have been broken down by the machine of monotheism. There are gaps in the historical record, or access to that record is more or less limited to those with strong academic tendencies and/ or resources, those for whom Reconstruction is the surest way to reclaim our ancient faiths. But how can the average devotee make such a connection? What is happening is that individuals are reconnecting with the Netjeru via intuition and instinct, following their own inner guidance as they determine who the Gods are and how They should be approached. UPG comes in the form of little epiphanies or flashes of inspiration, where one just knows that Sekhmet wants that shiny red and gold altar cloth. When one lays the cloth down for the Goddess, one just feels very right about it, and things feel like they've fallen perfectly into place. Of course, the Recon way to approach this situation would be to dig into the appropriate cultic text to check for references to red and red fabrics in the mythos and worship of the Goddess. Does red cloth play a role, however small, in the rituals or festival celebrations of Sekhmet? What about Her titles or epithets? Can we find a link with red cloth there? How has the color red played a role in the mythos of the Goddess as preserved in the historical record? I think the reader has the idea. The Reconstructionist approach strives to fill in as much as possible from the actual records the Ancients left us, which span an enormous length of time and provide us a road map to recovering our ancient traditions. However, for many people, the Reconstructionist approach can be difficult, if not a little challenging to one's patience. One might be forgiven for cursing on the other side of one's face, when simply wanting to touch base with one's deities, but feeling instead like it's a process of jumping through academic hoops in order to do the simplest thing. This kind of experience can remove the joy and spontaneity from one's connection to the Gods, if one is constantly worried about "getting it right" according to the available record. UPG, therefore, offers the average aspirant the luxury of allowing instinct- rather than historical necessity- to guide, making the spiritual experience feel readily accessible, instead of the exclusive domain of those in the academic know. These are the feelings I've had expressed to me consistently by those who inquire about Kemeticism and Kemetic Reconstructionism, and wish to understand how I approach it. I think UPG is fine, and it works for many people. It tends to give practitioners a hands-on feeling to the Netjeru, and comes without constraints. One simply "feels" one's way through it. Far be it from me to disparage a person's heartfelt experiences with their Gods. If Bastet really wants gummy fish from you, then I suppose that's between you and the Goddess. I'd probably advise they be of the highest quality possible, and at least served on the most traditional offering vessel you can find. But then that's just me, as I tend (as a hem-netjer or priest) to be a traditional kind of guy. My advice to practitioners is to make a sincere effort to get to know your Netjeru before you decide for sure that yes, Bastet loves gummy fish and always has. I feel that getting to know the Gods is kind of similar to how we get to know our human friends. It takes work, effort, sincerity, and a willingness to learn something new. The Netjeru of Kemet are very ancient deities, Who have operated within a specific cultural framework for thousands of years. These Gods are used to the types of offerings They've received in Their cults for the duration of millennia, and, in my experience, They still expect to receive. With only a little effort, one can indeed find all the basic information one needs in order to honor the Netjeru respectfully and traditionally. It is just as easy to pick up a bottle of wine or a bunch of figs as it is to head over to the candy isle for that very dignified bag of gummy fish! One might be very surprised by the reaction of the Gods when you have put effort into finding the things They've loved for thousands of years, and offer them in a respectful manner that extends true reverence. These very reverential experiences are the ones that build the most powerful relationships between us and our Gods. Try it, and you will see how satisfying the results can be. You may even find yourself becoming enchanted by the traditional way of communing with these most ancient Gods. First and foremost, whichever road you choose, UPG or solid Reconstructionism (and perhaps, if you're like me, some of both blended happily together), learn to open yourself up fully and respectfully to the Gods you worship. Learn to speak your heart to Them, to meditate on Them, and to ask Them for Their direct guidance. Yes the Netjeru can and do speak directly to Their devotees. It may take quite a while before you really feel that level of communication growing, but through honest effort it will happen. Lastly, learn to listen, to take the time to follow that inner guidance that you will eventually be able to discern as coming from your Gods. There is no magical formula that can produce these results, but you can rest assured that the Netjeru of Kemet, Who have guided and engaged humanity for countless thousands of years, will guide you as you make the honest effort to know Them. All text and image copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa Great Mother Auset, I receive the milk of Your heavenly breast;
The grace of the Sun reborn in the East, The doors of heaven thrown open For the passage of my feet. I am Your son, O Goddess of the Gods, Mother of the Hawk Who encircles The two horizons. I am suckled by You, reared through Your greatness, as was the Lord of the Sky When He appeared with dappled plumage From Your womb. I take the magic of Your breast, Nurse from the enchantments springing Forth from Your loins; This is the gap from which the sun is reborn, And I am hailed as its face in the dawn Between Your thighs. O Goddess, the two horizons of the sky Become Your diadems! Auset Great of Magic, You are the Mother Of the God, and of all the primordial Gods Who came into being through You. Homage to You O Auset Weret Hekauw. Your magic is my magic, And through You have I come forth again As king of the celestial dawn. ~ Invocation to Auset Great of Magic by Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa The word hetep or hotep means "satisfied, "peace" and "boon", and is applied to the action of offering. I cannot stress enough the importance of offering in our relationships with our Netjeru! The Sacred Powers grant boons (hetepu) to us during that vital exchange, where we come together with Them in the act of giving what we have. This creates a firm energetic link between ourselves and the Netjer. It changes the space we do this in from mundane into Sacred Space. Even more profoundly, it draws the Netjer into a bonded relationship with us that produces hetep (or hotep, "boon"), a blessing. This blessing is energetic, vital, life-sustaining and TANGIBLE!
It doesn't have to be complicated. It doesn't have to be a huge affair. Bring what you have: a candle, a bowl of beer, a piece of bread, a special stone, fresh cut flowers. Arrange these things on your altar or shrine as lovingly as you can, and invite the Gods to come and partake. Let Them know your heart, your thoughts, your appreciation for Their presences. Be sincere, and show respect. That is all it takes. You see here a picture of the Shrine to the Household Gods in the Temple of Ptah Nevada. The evening ritual has been offered, and the hetepu have been placed before Lord Ptah and His Family. What we offer is what we can afford, and the very best our hearts have in them. When we do this, Netjer always meets us more than half way. Our household thrives because of our love and devotion. Netjer is always GOOD. NEFER. All text and picture copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa My feeling is that Kemet and Kemeticism are almost as much a frame of mind as they are a physical place. On the level of Spirit, Kemet is the Eternal embodiment of the Netjer, manifest in the sacred images, scents, gestures and words of the Ancients. Our task is to imbue these ancient treasures of the Netjer with a new life, to continue to pass these down to those who are starving for at-one-ment with the Netjeru.
Every day, we have the opportunity to engage in a thread of sacred creation that in its linear, outward manifestation is at least 4,000 years old, and, I believe, much older. The ancient texts, prayers and rites are not just flies stuck in amber on temple and tomb walls, but are the actual fabric of a technology of the Spirit through which humankind has direct access to Netjer. That is the true and Kemetic meaning of "religion". When we recite these prayers today, and partake of the offerings and ritual gestures of the Ancients, we and they are linked, and we enter immediately into the Presences of the Netjeru. When we carve or paint or sculpt the Sacred forms and the Medu (or hieroglyphs), we are "turning on" the gears of a most ancient technology of the Spirit, and permitting access directly to the Gods. We are partaking of "Sacred Time", and engaging in immortality. This, then, is our focus through our Kemetic art and practice. To be Kemetic means we live Kemet here and now; it means we live with the Netjeru in each and every moment of each and every day. All text and image copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa The God Ptah is generally limited in His functions when it comes to mainstream awareness of how He functions as a Netjer. People limit Him to patron of artisans, sculptors, and craftsmen, and as Creator of the Netjeru and humankind. These are very significant primary functions of Lord Ptah; however, like all the Netjeru, Ptah encompasses vast functions, manifestations, and spheres of influence. One of Ptah's significant aspects is as a warrior god. In ancient times He became the patron of one of Kemet's national army branches, and He was known as a mighty god whose anger and power raged like a bull, a bull of sharp horns.
The Hap (Apis) Bull is not only a manifestation of fertility, creation, and sexuality, but also an incarnation of destructive power, and dominance, which Lord Ptah has over all Gods and all things in creation. Ptah is also known to be a vengeful god in His pursuit to maintain the cosmic order of Ma'at. He has been known to strike blind those who lie in His name. We must remember that Ptah chose the Goddess Sekhmet as His beloved spouse, and She is well known for Her wrathfullness and warrior nature. Lord Ptah is equally a destroyer as He is the Creator. As Ptah-Sokar He is Lord of death, and He is a terrible, fearsome god when He manifests in that aspect. We must not make the mistake of putting our Gods into neat little boxes with tidy labels, and refusing to acknowledge Them in the fullness of Their divinity, simply because some of Their aspects make us uncomfortable or are hard to swallow. Our Gods are not one dimensional. They are not politically correct, nor are They here to live up to our expectations or judgments. The Gods are above our judgment and our subjective morality. They are Gods, and we're not! Just when we think we've pinned Them down, They are going to use every power at Their disposal to demolish our ignorance and idealism. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa People often ask me why I worship a Goddess like Sekhmet...why I call on Her and trust Her with my life. She is, after all, such a fierce Goddess, terrible and seemingly bloodthirsty. How can someone like me, someone who believes in peace and non-violence, attach himself to a Goddess with such a war like reputation?
When I was ordained as a priest of Sekhmet by Lady Olivia Robertson, she told me to "go forth and combat evil". What is evil, but a force, a construct that pulls us away from our conscience and awareness of what is right and wrong, a system that takes us away from knowledge of our Sacred Powers. The Goddess Sekhmet brings us back into this immediate sense of right and wrong, of Ma'at and consciousness, and that sometimes means tearing us to pieces in order to do it...severing the stronghold our ego and untamed mind has on us. When I was initiated by the Dalai Lama, His Holiness spoke about our wrathful Dharma Protectors, and he said that some of them are fierce because our untamed mind is fierce. It runs like wild and prevents us from being aware of the true nature of things...things as they really are. So our fierce Dharma Protectors are there to remove the obstacles our mind creates to lucidity and awareness. So, they have to be fierce, to cut through our delusions. Of course, Sekhmet in a purely Kemetic context cannot be called a "Dharma Protector", but the concepts are similar. Sekhmet is here to help us achieve health and clarity, to lead us away from self-destruction and delusion. She wakes us up out of our ego and wild wanderings in self-obsession, and She unites us with the Wedjat Eye, the Wholeness of the Netjer manifesting throughout the Gods and creation. She has to be fierce in order to accomplish that. We cannot honor or know Her unless we are first prepared to walk through that fire. All text copyright © 2015 Rev. Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa |
AuthorReverend Ptahmassu Nofra-Uaa is co-founder of Hwt-Ka-Ptah/ Temple of Ptah Nevada, a Kemetic Reconstructionist temple dedicated to the celebration and restoration of authentic ancient Egyptian spirituality. He is also High Priest of Per-Auset/ Temple of Isis Nevada, a non-profit educational religious organization representing the Egyptian tradition of the Goddess Auset/ Isis. ArchivesCategories
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